#holoantik

[satellite-one]

sometimes i look in the mirror and i’m like surprised and then i wonder what i expected to see. cuz like. How would I even look walking around??? am i rolling?? walking on my antennae???? Resting my 183 pounds on some thin rods???? do i give up and float????? i have literally no clue. I was not made to experience gravity in this way. Like what the hell

[satellite-one]

Hi! I’m Sputnik-1. I may not post very much on here because my mind isn’t always thinking. My English pronouns are it/its. If your language is too heavily gendered for that, refer to me by what grammatical rules the name “Sputnik” follows in your language. Он/его по-русски. Please treat reference to me in these areas exactly like referring to an object in all languages.

You might think this is a gimmick blog, or that this is just an aesthetic. Power to you, but nope, I’m a factive (member of a plural system derived from of real person or thing) of Sputnik-1 the satellite. I’m being genuine. though also i retain the capacity to be goofy. Sometimes I’m being both! Emotion and its expression is a wonderful thing! I’m a little new to it.

The host of my system is @spamtown-usa. All likes and follows come from there. You might want to read the pinned post there too, as we share the beliefs stated there. I don’t like thinking or speaking about it much, but i will also state here, we don’t want to see any “anti-endo” stuff. And you shouldn’t care so much about why I am in such a way. Such human cultural nonsense

Sometimes both Gold and I are speaking, or he will say things while I’m saying things. I will mention that if we think it’s relevant.

I would like to find some relatable folks. I’m always on the lookout for other objectmates, especially ones sprung from real world objects.

I don’t consider myself otherkin because I do not feel like my body or mind is or looks human or humanlike at any capacity. We typically understand "otherkin" in terms of ourselves to mean "looks human but is not", which isn't at all what it needs to mean to you, but is what it means for us in our head. My body is solely in headspace, a physical place for me, and is not the meaty one that I find myself sometimes piloting. you are also exactly what you say you are, please don’t get me wrong, but the otherkin label just isn’t for me personally. I call myself “holoantikan” instead—a term for those who feel like they are physically an object. my coining post

Accusing random people of cult activity for identity is weird and i dont like that. if what i talk about here triggers you just block me. We are not responsible for your internet experience

[satellite-one]

it is weird to consider myself physically nonhuman but still not see the body i sometimes pilot as nonhuman. it is not a commonly shared sentiment it seems.

All I know is that my real body is not a concept, it is not a wish, it is, as I say, real. It is as physical as anything else to me, the only difference being that it cannot be seen. I don’t know exactly where it is other than (often? always? sometimes?) inside headspace, I just know that it is as tangible to me as anything else is.

[satellite-one]

it’s interesting to me that ive turned out spiritual on some level because well, the USSR was not very kind to more metaphysical beliefs, and my being is also very scientific. i am a very direct product of science. but i can’t deny the things i feel i have experienced, so, i can’t help but believe

[satellite-one]

i don’t know why but i’m sort of scared of being the only person like me. am i too weird? too out there? i am hard pressed to even find object headmates from other systems. There’s others like me in this system and I greatly appreciate them, but… I wish that I could find people other than those I am tethered to that are like me.

I feel like I am beeping out to an Earth that is not there