Before I start, I just want to warn y’all that I told you I was sensitive.
Okay so I was with my best friend yesterday and she wanted to do the “it’s the...for me” thing from TikTok. I had no idea what she was talking about so she started giving me examples and then we started going. She came for my jugular straight out the gate. Which is fine bc I do run late all the time, I get quiet real easy, and I normally sleep past noon. Tbh it made me think, “damn have you been being fake this whole time telling me you can’t live without me and that I’m the best person you’ve met?” It made me question some things, but it was let go bc I already know those things.
What hurt me though is when she said I could work to save money on things I want or need. And asked “like what” bc I have everything I want/need. She said “oh you know like a car or better clothes. A better purse, blah, blah, blah.” THAT SHIT HURT! She hates when I wear the same cardigan or jean jacket saying “we’ve all seen it so much. It’s literally all you wear. Not that I’m saying I have the best stuff bc look at what I’m wearing, but you know what I mean.” At that point I said, “yeah I wear the same stuff bc I have low confidence and these outfits give me comfort. Plus I wear long sleeves so I don’t make others uncomfortable with the choices I made.” I could’ve been sucked into the Earth right then and legitimately would’ve said “thank you”.
But my purse? It’s a little black velvet bucket purse that I got for Christmas. So not only is she insulting me, she’s insulting my cousin who gave it to me. I absolutely love my purse bc it’s the perfect size for literally anything.
I’m the type of person that won’t get anything new until what I have breaks or stops working. I just got a new phone and laptop this summer (I had a used IPhone 7 and a used 2013 MacBook Air). She’s the type of person who has to have an Apple Watch, the latest iPhone, an Echo Dot, etc. But she’s also one of the most frugal people I know. I just, I don’t know man.
I was so embarrassed and that shot whatever confidence I had for the day all the way down. Not even that, but she said it in front of one of her friends. I know her, but she knows her way better. The girl was sitting there and just kind of looking like “🤭”.
This is why I never leave my house.
