Let's be real for a sec (what's really going on)
I was just scrolling through my dash, thinking how everyone looks so beautiful and admirable and then I got a fan letter telling me that I am just that. Besides the obvious flatter that it caused, I also thought: "but you don't know what you're talking about."
So here is the truth, as an extended "behind the scenes" I would like to tell you what's really going on when:
You see a beautiful picture of me doing yoga - it's likely the only thing I've done that day. I'm 26, I have stress related anxiety, which means that life is a hassle for me. I'm scared of everything right now. Doing a handstand (which might be what I'm doing on the picture) requires an enormous amount of will from my side... I don't "just" do them anymore.
Sometimes I don't get out of bed until 12 - not because I don't want to - I just can't.
See me being bendy - I have a misplaced disc, which means that most backbends hurt, if not while I'm doing them then two days after. Sometimes, even sitting down hurts. At one point before I was operated I was pretty much paralyzed for three months. Also it's taken me YEARS of hard work to get there...
See my yoga pose on a beautiful spot - I live at my parents house because of the mentioned condition. The beautiful house, the view, the woods they are not mine, they are theirs. My room is the guest room, I don't have my own.
So here's the thing: Don't compare yourself with all the "perfect" that's out there! You are exactly where you need to be, as you need to be there. If you think that I am weak or pathetic, I am very envious of you that you do not know the pain og grief that life can cause. I hope for you that you will never know it. If you are lost at sea, however, and feel like you're the only one who feels "blue" in a media world of smiling selfies, know that you are not strange or weird, outcast or misplaced - you are simply living this life and all that comes with it.
Love and light
