also... i want to sort of air this out once before (hopefully) not dwelling on it again 0: one of the main things at work that has been affecting me a lot is that... it doesn't feel like most of my coworkers like me u__u it ties in with my skills, which are . bad . im slow and clumsy and forgetful, which has affected my work a lot and i feel super bad T__T i try to do my best but sometimes that doesnt even feel like enough which . sucks. i think ive also been putting a lot of pressure on myself to improve as fast as possible, but i think thats just been adding to my anxiety. idk... it feels kinda sad ? to think about how my coworkers are probably fed up with me u__u
it also sucks because it's really different to my prev work place... i got along with a majority of my coworkers and i actually enjoyed being at work because of how fun our conversations were. i know that not every place is going to be the same, so i think i just have to make peace with that... and hopefully ill do better at work in 2022 and i wont get fired LOL