current vibes are somewhat similar to end of 2021... i had been quarantined in my house for a few days because my brother tested posi for covid (hes getting better?? i think) but even though some circumstances have changed for the better (??) i still feel more miserable than i did last year, somehow. i think it might be because of my current job but also my perspective on things ?? i don't know... i feel like i go into work somewhat dreadful, and that already has a huge influence on how the day will play out. i feel like im more likely to take things personally from my manager/coworkers, even when it's not meant to be perceived that way. i think... im going to try to not see things that way, as best as i can. i think ill have to put in quite the effort for it, like consistently reminding myself that things arent personal and that i can always work towards improvement
also im currently searching for a differently psychiatrist, finally. ive been putting it off for monthsssss now but it's finally time 0: i think i also realized that . hm . maybe my current medication isnt supposed to make me feel the way ive been feeling... a default mood for me is to feel... nothing dikdnddkd and it's not necessarily in a bad way ...? sometimes i just dont feel anything . but i think i read somewhere that meds .... Aren't supposed to do that... so maybe ill ask for a different kind of medication + maybe adhd medication once im able to find a new psychiatrist u__u