#hope004

[stilesrobinsonmichael]

Running into Hope [Stiles x Hope]

@hope-robinson

[Stiles]

Stiles had finished his date with Grace and he was still dressed up. He wasn’t sure what to think as of this moment since he knew that his mind was all clouded. It was a fact that he didn’t regret making love with Grace but the way that things were progressing was much quicker than he thought it would be and that scared him. He wasn’t looking where he was going when he accidently bumped into someone. “Shit, sorry are you oka-Hope?” He asks while stopping to face her.

[Hope]

“Oh hey Stiles, sorry I’m kind of in a rush.” She responded getting ready to leave before looking at his outfit. “Uh...interesting costume. Did you come from somewhere?” Hope asked.

[Stiles]

He was slightly confused by her words, “Costume? No, I just got back from a date with Grace. I took your advice and I am moving on...rather quickly but still moving on nonetheless.” There was still a part of him that wished that Liam had wanted him and wished that it was Liam saying all those words that Grace had told him but maybe that was a sign in itself that he was over thinking things too much.

[Hope]

“Oh, okay. Well I’m happy for you. You might want to talk to your brother though, cause TJ wasn’t happy about it earlier but if you are happy then that’s all that matters.” She shrugged. “What do you mean quickly?”

[Stiles]

“Why would I talk to TJ? He wanted her as a fuck buddy?” He asks in confusion before clarifying what he meant. “Well I mean...we were at the club the other day and obviously I made sure to take care of her, we kind of fell for each other. The next day we ended up playing truth or dare and I don’t know we both kind of just...there was this electricity between us, I don’t know how to describe it. We both admitted that we were falling hard and fast for each other. She dared me to make love to her and well...I did. I meant everything I said in that moment. She said all the things that I had wanted Liam to say to me and I really am falling for her that’s why I asked her out on a date and asked her to be my girlfriend. I felt like I needed to prove to her that I am not in this for the sex or anything like that. I don’t know Hope, I am really confused because she was insisting that Liam loves me but its been months and he never said anything to me and now that I am finally moving on...it just..everything feels weird, not in a bad way or anything but like...I don’t know how to describe it. I really do care for her and I don’t want to hurt her. I want to be able to be what she wants to be for me because she doesn’t deserve to be hurt like that. I also know Liam would never forgive me for sleeping with Grace either but I don’t regret it. I don’t want him to think I am using her. Everything is so confusing right now.”

[Hope]

“You...oh...wow that’s...wow. Uh I should have told Zach I would be gone longer...okay look I am all for giving into that electricity between people but I also know how I feel when I do it. I am never confused. I know if it’s love or if it’s a one time thing. I have known Grace for a very long time and if she slept with you she isn’t confused. She risks her relationship with her parents not to mention any chance of getting an arranged marriage, but that being said maybe you feel something but you don’t feel what she does and that’s fine. It’s okay to not love someone like that and still care for them. It’s obvious to me that you still care for Liam just like TJ still cares for Irene. You need to decide what you want and how to move forward but do it before you get yourself into something you can’t get out of. I don’t regret sleeping with Ken but I don’t love him. I care greatly about him but that’s it. Maybe Grace is your Ken.” She shrugged before looking at her phone. “Are you going to be okay or do you need me because if so you should tell me now.”

[Stiles]

“I already got myself into something I can’t get out of. Imagine what Liam or his parents would say if they knew that I slept with her. Even on the slight chance everyone was right about him loving me there is no way he would want to be with me after that. He wouldn’t hurt Grace like that. She already gave me her heart Hope. I don’t even know what to do...when I am with her, I don’t question things. The feelings are there but once I am not around her...I start to think about Liam. This makes me feel like such a shitty person.” He notices her looking at her phone, figuring she had better places to be. “I don’t want to bother you if you have places to be. I don’t mean to unload all of this onto you now.”

[Hope]

“No you are fine, it’s just that...forget it nevermind.” She shook her head putting her phone away as she looked at him. “Yeah you are in some deep shit and I would have told you that had I know you were thinking of doing that, but it’s done now so all you can do is just be honest. You don’t regret sleeping with Grace, you care about her, but you don’t love her. Imagine if you let this go on? Imagine if she falls for you to the point where she can’t accept you with her brother. You need to stop it before it gets there. Yes it will be hard and she will most likely hate you for a while, but you will be a shitty person if you keep sleeping with her and then the moment you aren’t around you think of her brother. That’s just weird and not right. You are a good guy and I don’t know how many times people need to tell you Liam loves you, I don’t necessarily like him, but I would rather you be with him then hurt Grace. Does that make sense?”

[Stiles]

“Yeah that makes sense...I just...what would I even say to him if I saw him? He already knows I slept with her and that would just make him mad if I were to come and tell him that I still love him. He has already rejected me so many times Hope. What if he does it again? If he does it again, I will have to move on and hell I won’t be able to move on and start to fall in love with Grace because I will have fucked that up by going to her brother and telling him I love him only to be shut down. What if by confessing and being reject, I throw away the one chance I have at someone actually being able to love me? I don’t like the idea of being alone Hope, that scares me so badly.”

[Hope]

“Stiles do you even hear yourself? You just said you want to tell Liam you love him. What if Grace heard that? What do you think that would do to her? You are saying it when she isn’t around you already made your choice. You once told me that I had a choice between Zach and Ken and I had to make it not thinking of sex, well now you need to make a choice not thinking about being alone. Grace or Liam? Which one, no thinking. Just say it.”

[Stiles]

“I can’t just say it though because there are so many other factors that go into it. Grace and I get along rather well, our conversations are never boring. Liam...when I am with Liam my whole existence wants to be with him but it destroyed me when he told me to leave. What if I fuck up? I can’t take it back. I can’t fix the fuck up that might happen. What if he moved on? What if that’s why he hasn’t talked to me? What if he found someone else?” He could feel his anxiety skyrocketing at all the thoughts going through his mind making it impossible for him to think straight. “Liam...I want Liam.”

[Hope]

“Great, I mean not great cause you just hurt my best friend but great you made a choice. So now you have to tell him that. I think the last person to see him was TJ so I would go to him and ask. Since Liam told TJ about you and Grace. So ask TJ, go to Liam, then go to Grace.” She responded before thinking. “You know what, you can go see TJ right now. He’s at the level e Halloween party and if you go I don’t have to and can go back to my fiancé.”

[Stiles]

“Yeah okay I can do that. I can go and ask TJ.” He responds. “Did you want to come with me...I don’t want him getting mad at me if I am interrupting something he is doing...since I don’t know what he is doing.”

[Hope]

She shook her head. “Nope, you are the oldest and I have other things I want to do. I haven’t seen Zach in a month and I much rather spend today with him. You will be fine. Just put your foot down.” She reassured him as she pat his back. “You’ll be fine.”

[Stiles]

“What should I even do when I find him? What if he rips me in half? TJ and I don’t have such a great history you know...besides he tried to bring Grace home too at some point so...I don’t know maybe this is a bad idea.” He tries to figure things out in his head. It sucked to his his mother’s bipolarness and it definitely didn’t help him at a time like this.

[Hope]

“Stiles please you can handle this. I really want to spend time with Zach. TJ will not touch you in a room full of people he hopes he will one day lead and if you truly need me I will run to you and I will be there but you are the older brother if you act like it you won’t have issues. Please?”

[Stiles]

“What if he took some girl to another room. There wouldn’t be any witnesses if he kills me. You are lucky you don’t have my mother’s bipolarness.” He huffed. “I shall go and find him then. You can go and fuck your fiancé. If I die, I am blaming you, just saying.” He responds with a huff.

[Hope]

“Oh thank you.” She said hugging him. “I love you and if you die I will name my next kid after you. But seriously if you need me call me, I will be there. But please don’t need me.”

[Stiles]

“Name your next kid after me, yeah okay.” He laughed slightly before nodding his head. “Okay well...stay close to the phone please. You know how paranoid I can be.”

[Hope]

“Hm Zach will stay close to the phone...I might preoccupied.” She smiled playfully. “Okay I’m leaving. Good luck with Liam and TJTJ.”

[Stiles]

Stiles shook his head at Hope’s words before stepping back. “Yeah that...I am good. Thank you for that. I am going to go now.” He responds before going to the party to find TJ.

[nibsthebravelostboy]

Informing Nibs About A Deal [Nibs x Hope]

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[Nibs]

Nibs had just had lunch before he headed to Hope’s room. After hearing what Misty was telling him about her, he wanted to make sure that she was doing okay and check in on her. Ever since she got with Zach it wasn’t like her to go out and drink until she couldn’t remember anything. Going over to her door, he knocked on it “Hope, it’s me. Can we talk about a few things.”

[Hope]

Hope snuck back into her room through her window and quietly closed it as she could hear Nibs voice outside. “Uh yeah hold on.” She said before kicking off her shoes and moving to open the door. “Hey dad what’s up?”

[Nibs]

“I have heard rumors around the castle that we need to address. May I come in?” He asks while waiting for her to move so that he could enter the room.

[Hope]

“Uh...sure.” She nodded moving to the side to let Nibs in. “Do you mind me asking what the rumors are about? Last time you came addressing rumors it was about me having sex and that ended with me being grounded and seeing as I already am can we just skip to the part where you tell me why you are mad?”

[Nibs]

“I am not mad, I have heard rumors that Liam has been trying to force you have his kid. Is that true?” He asks while walking into the room and shutting the door behind him.

[Hope]

“Yeah...he brought it up. Him and TJ seem to think it’s a good idea. I told him no that Zach would never understand that and I couldn’t betray him like that, but TJ said once he is king I won’t have much of a choice. That I need to help the family one way or another so,” She shrugged. “It’s fine, I will deal with it when TJ is crowned. He loves me he wouldn’t do something to make me unhappy, he’s just letting the king thing get to him.”

[Nibs]

Hearing Hope’s words, Nibs shook his head. “He really thinks he can force you into having kids? Kings can only suggest marriages they can not force someone to have a child out of wedlock that is bad for our image. Besides I already was talking to Cameron about the whole situation. If anything TJ would be forced to have the kid but since Cameron does not want to tamper the lineage with hybrid blood, Liam is to find a pureblood not a hybrid to have the child for him. You are not allowed to have his children. Cameron and I have made a blood magic pact and if another king tries to overrule it, it will kill them. Stiles has already been looking into magic as to how he can become a pureblood and I know that Pan is more than capable of being able to help Stiles with that issue so maybe you should tell Liam that he needs to go and talk to Stiles about a few things before declaring that he is to force you to have a child that would most definitely probably come out a hybrid and kill you since you are already mated to your imprint. Stiles has already suffered setbacks from that dumb bracelet he has on because of Liam’s lack of love for the boy and I am not about to put you through the same thing when it would be all for nothing anyway.”

[Hope]

Hope sat on her bed as she listened to Nibs. “Okay, I wasn’t really scared of it happening. I mean by the time he becomes king I will be married and settling down with my family. I don’t know much about Liam and Stiles love life I try to stay out of it but...dad maybe you should tell Stiles to back off just a little. Liam was talk to me and Zach and...I have never seen someone hate the imprint more than him. I just got a bad feeling. And Stiles trying to get rid of who he is is dumb. He should stay a shifter and find someone who actually cares. Liam isn’t thinking about what that bracelet is doing to Stiles and I don’t even think he cares. I just think Liam and Stiles aren’t a good match...I don’t want to see Stiles hurt because of Liam. He will be just like Dylan soon.”

[Nibs]

“Are you sure about that though? I am sure that TJ is not very far off from being King soon. He has almost completed all his training. Stiles hasn’t even seen Liam ever since Liam left him hanging long ago. He got the bracelet on his own because Liam had told him to break the bond. You don’t break an imprint bond Hope that isn’t how things work around here. I have already tried to talk Stiles out of it but he doesn’t want to budge. That is understandable given how much pain he is going through because of that bond. You can’t live without your imprint Hope, you just can’t. If heaven forbid, your mother refused the imprint I would have died a long time ago. If you want to talk to Stiles about it you can try but just as I changed for my imprint, he thinks that doing the same will solve the problems they are encountering. That way he can have Liam’s kids and that they can be purebloods so his father doesn’t force him to have them with anyone else. Stiles has already been suffering because of Liam and there isn’t much we can do about it.”

[Hope]

“It just so frustrating talking to him. He is constantly doing that woe it’s me thing and I just want to slap him and tell him to get it together. How many times can one person tell you they don’t want you? He has every opportunity to talk to Stiles and he doesn’t. He doesn’t want to. He doesn’t want Stiles kids and he doesn’t want to love Stiles. I know how imprints work dad but I am still a person. Who falls out of love, who doesn’t want something, I feel things and I know when I am done being treated like shit. It’s why me and TJ don’t talk to him, we can’t tell him over and over to move on and watch him do the exact opposite of what we say. I have had to sit and watch you and mom go through all you went through. How can anyone raised by you act like that? I just...we lost our siblings. Life is too short to be unhappy. If me and Zach really didn’t work I am not afraid to leave him. If Zach treated me like Liam treated me I would leave in a heartbeat regardless of how much I love him, I refuse to be treated like that. I am not going to let death stop me from being happy. I just can’t and Stiles does. Him and Ken are both like that. It’s understandable but...I just wish he’d stop.”

[Nibs]

“I think you haven’t spoken to him very recently have you? He has changed a lot since that dinner we all had together. He doesn’t mope around anymore, he has taken hold of his life again. Stiles has even started to teach some of the classes at the school as well as training himself. Liam came to him recently and told him about the whole ‘fake dating’ thing and he was perfectly fine. Everyone handles things differently, you have to remember that Stiles is not like you and your brother. He is handling things to the best of his abilities. Maybe you should set him up with someone then and see if that helps or try to talk to him, I am sure he will listen to you.”

[Hope]

“I have no friends dad, if I had someone to set him up with I would.” She said looking at him. “I think of someone but...no one besides Jay is around me and I don’t think that would be a good match so I will need to seriously think about that.” She responds.

[Nibs]

“Okay but still just talk to him okay? I know that you and your brother both think that he is still acting the same but I can assure you that he isn’t so just give him a chance.”

[Hope]

“Yeah I can.” She nods laying back in her bed. “I will give him one more chance but after that I’m done. He already is straddling the line with me and just because we are family doesn’t mean I have to talk to him.”

[Nibs]

“Yeah okay that makes sense. So long as you give him a chance that will be fine.” He responds while looking at the other with a smile. “I have faith in you Hope.”

[Hope]

“Well seeing as I’m grounded it won’t be any time soon and once I’m out of here I want to see my son and my boyfriend but then yes I will talk to him.”

[Nibs]

“Well while I am away you are ungrounded. I will talk to your mother about this but I don't want TJ to think he has control over you while I am gone and I really don’t want to you have to resort to running away again nor do I want him to force you to have kids.” He explains.

[Hope]

Hope looked at Nibs and shook her head, “I wasn’t going to run away because of this. It’s dumb, he’s letting power get to his head and eventually he will remember that I have a say in my own life. But you should talk to mom before you unground me...just to make sure.”

Sitting up she was worried about what she was going to ask but knew it was now or never, “Dad um...I know we haven’t talked about this but I have been engaged to Zach for a while and I’m afraid if we stay engaged people will continue to pull us away and I’ll give him his ring back and if I do it one more time Zach will leave me and I don’t want that...so when you get back if you can talk to mom...I would really like to get married to Zach. I have everything planned already and I have a dress, I really want this.”

[Nibs]

“I know he has proposed to you already, he asked me about it a long time ago. I will talk to your mother about it but you should also talk to her. Tell her about all the good that being with him has brought you, how it has changed you to be a better person and she will see that. Show her how much you love him not just tell her about it because actions speak louder than words.” He responds with a smile.

[Hope]

“So no. The answer is no. Would have been easier to just say that.” She responded laying back in her bed and grabbing her phone. “I will talk to Stiles.”

[Nibs]

“Not necessarily, your mother does care about you and I think there is a lot you two should talk about directly instead of through me because it is more authentic if you are the one to bring up the issues to her and find out her reasons on your own like an adult. Think about it okay? I can check in with you later then about how things went with Stiles.” He responds before going over and kissing her head before leaving the room.  

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[ ONE STEP AT A TIME ] CLOSED-JUNKO

He was tired. His mind was wandering too much, he could barely trust himself to pay attention to his surroundings, he kept asking himself questions he knew he couldn't answer. He was dirty and hungry and weak but most of all he was so very tired.

He had survived most of the night, the sun would probably start rising in a few hours and he had at the very least managed to make it to a less... busy area. No one was in sight at least, and Komaeda was considering curling up in the gutter right here. That was stupid and dangerous, but at this point he was wondering if he cared.

He sighed, moved a crushed can out of the way with his foot and put up his hood to maybe blend in with the ground better, but as he was on his knees and ready to lay down to take a nap he might not wake up from, he glanced back up and stopped himself. With all the destroyed, crumbling buildings around, it was easy to stop looking for something habitable, but just across the street there was what looked like... a dorm? Maybe he was just delusional (it wouldn't be anything new), but it looked like maybe it would be okay, and, well, it beat the gutter.

He was careful crossing the street, looked around to make sure no one was there to see him before searching for a back door and sneaking in that way. Once he had closed the door quietly behind him, he was delighted to see that it looked even better inside than out. He wanted to search the place thoroughly for safety's sake, he really had every intention to, but the first room he peeked his head into to check was a bedroom. Oh, that bed just looked so inviting. Maybe if he just... closed the bedroom door behind him, and took a tiny break on the bed... just to catch his breath......

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The shades on the room's window were shut tight, so when Komaeda opened his eyes, he couldn't be sure how much time had passed. Was it daylight? Had he slept the whole day through and it was the next night? Had his eyes only been closed a few seconds? Any one of those options seemed perfectly reasonable, but that wasn't so important right now. What was important was why he'd been woken up -- footfalls somewhere in the hall outside the bedroom he had crashed in. There was someone else here. It sounded like just one person, not a lot of stomping around or anything, so he couldn't be certain it was a rioter or anyone else... He could wait here and hope the person didn't check this room themselves, or he could try to go out and see who it was.

He was still tired, and his muscles ached terribly, so going back to sleep was a tempting idea... But no, he had already decided he wouldn't like to die a pointless death, and getting stabbed in his sleep was excessively pointless (well, except for the point on the knife). Komaeda offered the bed that had treated him so well a quiet groan of regret as he stood up and tried to stretch his muscles back into semi-usable condition, and eased the door open silently to peek out into the hall.

Her back was turned, so technically he couldn't possibly know who she was. She hadn't been on the island with him, after all. But the distinctive pigtails and confident stature, it hit something deep in him that he didn't know he had, and he was certain even without seeing her face. SHSL Despair herself, Junko Enoshima. Before he knew what he was doing he had opened the door fully and stepped out into the hall.

"You... What are you doing here?" He hadn't heard that kind of restrained anger in his own voice in a long time.