a shaky breath leaves maya’s lips, weaving between a bit of the ground in pursuit of her boyfriend. is being with lucas the right choice? she does like him, so fucking much, and she knows she wants to see where things go, but if she’s still at risk of run ins with josh that heavy is it fair to him for her to be his? is it fair when there is always part of her out of reach? she catches his eyes, hoping he doesn’t notice the red rim around hers, and her gaze falls to the girl beside him. marinette, she chuckles harshly to herself, why wouldn’t she be dancing with lucas right now. she’d just found out she’s the mystery girlfriend, after all. boys are going to be a topic for them to avoid, she’s already gotten the reasoning down. we’re too good for each other to let dumb boys get in the way, she’ll tell her. there’s no reason we can’t be friends and not talk about our boyfriends. she’d never admit it’s purely because she doesn’t want to hear about josh, there’s no good logic behind marinette not wanting to know about lucas, but she’ll play it off as a thing that girls just do sometimes. they don’t let boys interfere. it was something that her and riley just didn’t get the hang of too well, and she won’t make that mistake again.
she follows the vibrance of marinette’s dress, her own feet still carrying her towards her cowboy, and she watches as she walks by her and right up to josh, a few paces behind. she pretends she can’t hear her heart cracking a little when they share a kiss, as boyfriends and girlfriends do, as josh and maya couldn’t do. it’s then that she assures herself she doesn’t belong anywhere but with lucas. why is she overthinking? why is she questioning her relationship when josh has his own he’s clearly invested in? why does josh always do this, always make her fear that she isn’t waiting for him in the right way? she’d stopped walking, she hadn’t noticed being so off in thought, and so she moves faster to get to him. as soon as they’re face to face, she yanks down on his tie, giving in to the urge she feels to tell lucas that she’s his, to show him how much she truly wants this, to enjoy the night as his girlfriend because that’s what she is now- she’s his girlfriend. they’re together and this was supposed to be the beginning of that, but it had been rudely interrupted by her past. when she pulls back from the kiss, she puts on a smile. “hey huckleberry, how would you feel about getting out of here and just having a movie night? it’s getting a little crowded here.” // @hopvlong
