this meme i just created // accepting ! // @horsetm
“This thing on? Okay good. Hey so if you’re watching this it means I bit the dust. No big deal, I’m just not around anymore. And given that I addressed this to you and only you, I’m gonna assume you’re alone. Then again you always liked to show me off so hold on, let me show my good side.”
The holographic image of Tony pouts his lips, sticks his hips out a little bit, and tilts his head just slightly to the left.
“Better? Okay good. Anyway. So I’m dead. Which I’m sure probably sucks. But I gotta tell you, Sleipnir… You are one of the best parts of my life. I know we weren’t the kind of people to do the whole soul-bearing late night conversations under the stars thing but I want you to know that you mean the world to me. Look at that, I’m getting my tenses mixed up.” The projection licks his lips. One side of his mouth quirks up just a tick while his eyes cast down, away from the camera.
“We stumbled into this knowing you would live forever - or at least much longer than me - and that I wouldn’t. For a long time, I was fine with that. I’d tell myself to use the time we have together wisely. Now that I’m sitting here, making this video, I realize I’m not fine with it. No matter how many nights we sat up watching bad movies, no matter how many times I woke up on the floor with a hoofprint in my back, no matter how long we spent slow dancing in my workshop, I’m realizing that it wasn’t enough. It’ll never be enough. Not for me, anyway.”
“Sometimes mortals think about their lives in terms of what they want to accomplish. I wanna be an astronaut, or an engineer, or the President. We don’t think about the experiences we want to have, or how we want to be loved, or how long we want to be here. Looking back on it, I everything I ever did was all worth it because it all led me to you, Seabiscuit.”
The image runs a hand through its hair. Pats it down flat. Sighs.
“This got long. I’m sorry I died and left you alone but I’m not sorry I lived. I’m not sorry I met you, and I’m not sorry for the time we got to spend together. You’ll be okay. I love you, Pony Boy.”
