Technically speaking we did recommend one of those songs before once, but we didn't get a response so I'm assuming that he didn't get to it yet so I'll resend it:
- what's up danger (blackway, the opening song of spiderman- ironically not the way we discovered this song, props to our working out playlist being made by 2 adrenaline junkies who refuse to admit we can't work out)
- Underground reality (beyond duality)
- DNA (little mix, curious about his opinion on whose perspective it fits)
M.A.M (beyond duality, was suggested once but we got no response)
Currently got no suggestions for Ethan, no one aside of E. really talked with him and we don't know what his music taste is like
- Digi (not really but I was allowed to use it)
Thoughts while listening to each song:
What's Up Danger - The rapping is intense. That's not a bad thing, but I find myself less compelled by it. The rhythm and heavy beat and interesting melodies playing behind the lyrics are very interesting, however, and those I am compelled by. They make me feel thoughtful. I can relate to the feeling of adrenaline it invokes, and I especially like the part of the song about always answering when danger calls— Generally I find myself more reserved about leaping into danger without knowing the facts, but I know the feeling of always running headfirst into it anyway when you have a split second to make the decision, because it's better that it be me than someone else. It's a sense of duty that compels me and I know very well the invigoration of being in the midst of danger, that moment when you break past the fear and you're breathing it all in, matching it step for step. For that I find I can really appreciate this song.
Underground Reality - I really appreciate the softer instrumental intro, it helps highlight the message of duality that this song carries. I didn't realize until it mentioned specifically that this is a DID song, but it hits really hard. The heavy topics of human survival, trafficking, war crimes, and survivor's guilt remind me a lot of my psuedo memories, which I admit are blurry at best, but feel similarly heavy. The moments of hope, of being rescued and loved and being more than the disorder are sweet in their own way. I think Elizabeth probably appreciates that more than I do, because for me my life has become an objective thing. Life is what it is, and my existence in the system is very business forward, internalized, and disconnected from regular life. I suppose in that way I appreciate the grief portrayed in this song. There is a little-acknowledged part of myself that does grieve for the life I don't have, and for the lives my headmates must lead to survive what is essentially just the stress of a struggling young adult. These abstract concepts of stress become physical in a way that is hard to explain for many of us, so the message of the song really shines through in that.
DNA - It took me a moment to recognize it, but the beeping of the heart monitor is very striking. Our knowledge of Hyrule Warriors is very limited, and has been since I split in the system, so my psuedo memories regarding it are very sparse; the song does, however, immediately remind me of Cia, and creates an immediate sense of discomfort. I recall her being obsessive and touch-driven, in ways I was never comfortable with. Having already accidentally set the song to being from her perspective in my mind, I find that most of the lyrics are making me uncomfortable. If I look at it outside the connotation of Cia, it's a catchy and confident song, one that I could even picture myself enjoying. But with the idea of Cia, with all the focus on perfect features and how simple a man can be to understand, it reminds me of feeling objectified and delegitimized as a person. I could picture Elizabeth really enjoying this song from time to time for the "vibes" of it, but my personal connection to the lyrics makes it difficult for me to enjoy. Good song, but I don't like how it makes me feel.
Fight Back - Another very intense song. I had a little trouble keeping up with the lyrics at some points. I think I'm learning that this isn't really my style when it comes to music, but I did really appreciate the message. Something that has always been important to how I perceive myself is my ability to always fight against opposition where it's due, and my psuedo memories came with a lot of backlash in my rising the ranks to become a captain. It was always important to me to learn to overcome the things said to me and continue fighting for what I believed in, and I think, to a degree, this song captured some of that passionate energy.
I think I do recall you suggesting M.A.M to me, but yeah, I'm not the best at remembering to respond to song suggestions. I'm trying to be better! I'm making a point to note down song suggestions from here on out.
Ooh, I'm really liking M.A.M.. It's got a really good rhythm and it's extremely relatable. Music helps me push through a lot of my stress and executive dysfunction and mental health issues. I gotta listen to more of Beyond Duality at some point, it sounds like.
That's okay, I'm still figuring myself out anyway. I have no idea what kind of music I like. Most of what you recommended was pretty enjoyable, though. I think I do enjoy the heavier beats and more intense music. Unlike Wars I was vibing with the rapping.
