Unfortunately I am still alive. For however long that ends up being, who knows. I did self-harm and I had a seizure in my sleep. I woke up incredibly sore, disoriented, and terrified.
Leave me the fuck alone. Stop harassing me. Stop demanding I give you evidence of my abuse. I have kept his identity a secret for many reasons. A lot of it happened in voice call and my abuser openly admitted to several people that he abused me "but we worked it out and Roy forgave me!!!"
No. I am his abuse victim and he does not decide for me whether I forgive him for it or not. I can decide I am actually not okay with any of it and it deeply traumatized me, actually. I am allowed to do that. He has no say over any of that. I do not forgive him. He abused me and he admitted to it in a public voice call. Several times.
He already almost killed me in 2019. You do not need to finish the job for him in 2026.
Leave me the fuck alone and stop stalking my every fucking move. Stop talking about me. Stop. @how-do-these-people-exist YOUR behavior almost got me to kill myself last night. I was this close to blowing my brains out. Fuck off. Leave me alone. Stop. Stop letting my abuser use you to get to me. Stop talking about me. Stop harassing me. Stop stalking me. Stop monitoring my online activity and refreshing my social medias, that I have you all blocked on and requires being logged in and unblocked to see, just so you can talk shit about me. Leave me ALONE!!!