Hi. You are awesome and I hope you feel better soon. I'm here for you if you need someone to talk to or anything. Please don't give up you can get through this and things will get better. *powerhugs*
thank you so much for this message <3
but i just don’t know though
see like i’ve been in a state of very bad major depression before and i really tried my best to crawl my way out of that one through every outlet and help that i could get; therapy, tumblr rants, friends, lots of self-patience, lots of lowered standards of self-expectations, etc etc -- doing all those things while i get my mental state back up to mostly healthy ish
but now it’s going down again, and it’s not random, it’s because of the same reasons again; i can’t get a job again, the stress of moving again and i have to get out of this place by the end of november, and i also have classes that i want to be good at but i’ currently still suck at, and i have to deal with everything and everyone’s bank loan or whatever stuff coz now i’m the only one left in this country so i have to do all of it on their behalf and my skills are still not good and my portfolio is still unimpressive and my family is struggling financially again and so on and so forth and i just........ughhhhh...........there’s no time to waste with the self-care or lowering self-expectation or self-pressure stuff because all those things -- the money, the job to help my family, the moving -- are tangible issues that NEEDS to be done and uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i just wanna skip to the part where nothing happens anymore y’know? i’m just so tired, mentally, socially, emotionally, physically, everything
oh my sorry for the sudden rant
