#howsmyday

[queenbeecupcake]

This is A Rp bit very very very true... Call to see.. #HowImDoing #Ate #HowsMyDay #BabyYouNeedAnything #HowsTheKids Feed my physically, but most importantly my soul needs top be fed. (at Oakland, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/BrF__rsFYAMNn-6rcvu0lcyV0kMAfvwvmfkGZY0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=19t28a5ixugz8

[innocenteya-blog]

IT'S ME ALREADY

Ako na ang tanga Ako na ang walang kwenta Ako na ang may utak mani Ako na ang bobo Ako na ang pinaka malas pero naisip niyo ba pag may kailangan kayo "AKO" palagi ang to the rescue SORRY ha! kasi.. Ako kasi ang lagi nasa tabi niyo pag kailangan niyo ng tulong Ako kasi ang lagi na suporta sa inyo kapag alam niyong down na kayo Ako kasi ang lagi na salo ng pag kakamali niyo Ako kasi ang lagi nag sasabi na tiga ayos ng mali niyo Ako kasi ang lagi nag IINTINDI sa inyo Ako kasi ang lagi nag sasabi na kaya niyo pa kahit alam naman natin na wala na talaga Utos niyo sige wala akong choice kundi sumunod pero sa oras na may gusto akong ipaintindi sa inyo na ka rinig ba kayo sa akin? syempre wala anak niyo lang naman ako. SANA NGA WALA NA AKO DITO!! dati ko pa yan gustong mang yari bakit hanggang ngayon wala pa rin? hahaha nakaka tawang isipin na hindi lang pala ako gustong mang yari yun pati buong pamilya ko. Pero dahil ako nga si TANGA. Maniniwala na lang din ako sa katotohanan na walang nag mamahal sa akin sa bahay na ito. Pero pag talaga nangailangan sila ako nanaman si Tanga to the rescue pa lagi. hahaha *insert sarcasm* Nakakainis lang kasi pag wala silang ginagawa parang sila pa rin yung tama tapos ako mag PAPAHINGA lang ako pa rin yung tatawagin ni lang TAMAD at walang KUWENTA dito sa bahay... SORRY HA!! Ako kasi nag lalaba ng DAMIT niyo Ako kasi nag huhugas ng PINGGAN niyo kahit hindi ako KUMAIN kasi walang pag kain na natitira sakin. Ako kasi nag plaplantsa ng damitniyo Ako kasi nag aayos ng tambak niyo sa kuwarto ko. PERO PUTSA NAMAN OH! KONTING PAG KAKAMALI LANG!! BUONG BUHAY NIYO SINISINI NIYO NA SA AKIN KUNG BAKIT KAYO NAGING GANYAN!! TANGGAP KO NAMAN I'M JUST YOUR USELESS MIDDLE CHILD Pero tangina ni minsan hindi niyo ko sinuportahan TINANGGAP KO YON!!! Kahit na sobrang inggit na ako.. WALA EH MAHAL NIYO. Sabi nga nila pag sobrang mahal niyo isang tao gagawin niyo lahat para dito o para sa kanya. SORRY! siguro hindi ko na iyon mararamdaman ever.. hahahaha kasi walang mag tatangkang mag mamahal sa akin kung alam ko lang umintindi at hindi ko kayang intindihin ang sarili ko. TANGINA lang talaga. TATANGGAPIN KO. OO NA! IT'S ME ALREADY

[innocenteya-blog]

                                          Sunday Thoughts (11/08/2015)

Wearing

I’m wearing blue shirts that make me look like a gangsta because its size is bigger that me, and I’m also wearing blue plaid shorts, so basically I’m on a pambahay outfit, because I’m not on the mood going out today.

Playlist

Hyde – VIXX.  They’re having a comeback this Tuesday, and I still don’t know if I could buy their album. I’m being starlight here you know. They’re having a comeback and still I don’t have their album at least one album will be good for me. I just want an album. T.T

Craving

I’m still craving for an ICE CREAM! I’m still asking my sister if she could buy me one, I hope she will have a cookies and cream on her hands.

Happenings

Nothing happen today, well except that someone pm me on facebok and telling me stories, and he also wanted to take a picture of me, sorry I don’t want dude. I’m on my cell phone this whole day and a little bit time for my computer. And me and my mom watch a movie called “That thing called tadhana”, my mom likes JM De Guzman, because of his innocence. After this I’ll be watching “Bikini Academy” I don’t want my mom to watch with me, you know.

Thoughts

These past few days, I told to my self why not make a new blog so that I’ll just post there my thought on something, because I observe on something and I write it on my phones note, and I forgot to post it somewhere, and I thought if I post it on my  by DNSUnlocker"> facebook

everyone will notice and might bash me for it, twitter have limits, and my tumblr account (the other one) is full of pictures. Why not make a new start right? hahaha.

[carpediemsirene]

02 · 23 · 13 x The odd and peculiar one.

So I've taken up this Personality Disorder test. And it appeared that these three disorders are kinda more applicable to me. Hahaha! Mygosh. Oh well, it's true. I'd better stay in my own little nutshell (my-so-called-paradise) than to deal with those people who are really a big pain in the ass. I'd rather be alone. Buuuuuut! It doesn't mean I'm not friendly, and for your information I always get the Most Friendly award during my elementary days. Hahaha! it's just that, ugh.. I'm more comfortable. But I'd love to make friends, to people okay? Not to plastics and shitty ones.

Paranoid Personality Disorder - individual generally tends to interpret the actions of others as threatening; preoccupied with suspiciousness/paranoia. They are stuck between their need for others and their mistrust of others. (I've got 86% percent of it)

Schizoid Personality Disorder - individual generally detached from social relationships, and shows a narrow range of emotional expression in various social settings; emotional zombies who stopped feeling due to trauma(s) and/or can't feel due to organic depression (55% on this)

Schizotypal Personality Disorder - individual is uncomfortable in close relationships, has thought or perceptual distortions, and peculiarities of behavior; preoccupied with seeing themselves and/or the world as strange/odd (And 58% percent on this.)

[carpediemsirene]

02 · 12 · 2013 x Never cried like this during the past years that you left

I can't say that I'm a daddy's girl but definitely I don't hate my dad. After 9 months, he already left a while ago. Of course to work, to work for me, for my mom, for my brother and for our future. Aaah, how should I blog this feeling. I cry, every time he leave but this time it was different. I was crying as if there's really something more. I've never been this sad before, I've never cried this hard before. I'll miss my Papa. I miss him. I miss him now.

Argh. The tears, I can't stop it. Maybe because the 9months of his vacation with us is very overwhelming. I know he's not a perfect dad, but he's the best. Definitely the best. I'll admit it, there are times that I get mad at him, but still I surely love my Papa. I may not be showy in some ways but I hope I made him feel special and loved.

Since yesterday I was fighting so hard not to cry, but in the end of course it end up falling down. Shit, now I realized I really love my Papa. I owe him everything. My life, my education, my everything.

I hate it when he hugged me a while ago, and talked to me. I can't look at him. I can't talk to him. I don't want to talk because I know I'll just cry harder. I hate it when calls me "baby" because it made me feel like a little girl who wants his father to be by her side every now and then, and at that time, I really felt like that. A little girl who wants her Papa to be with her all day long. To feel safe and secured, to feel loved and extra special. I don't want him to go, But he left, of course he left. What made me cry even more is when he was carrying my favorite teddy bear when I was still little girl, her little girl. He brought it with him. It's sweet and argh. Sorry, I just can't help it anymore.

[carpediemsirene]

01 · 28 · 2013 x The way to a man's heart is through his stomach.

Nagfeeling chef na naman ako kanina. Pinagluto ko ulit si Mahal ng Carbonara, pero this time hindi na baon. Talagang sa bahay mismo nila niluto. Tapos binigyan ko din si Tito =)) At ang nakakahiyang part parang medyo maalat yung gawa ko. Hahaha! Nakakahiya lang yun diba? -_____________- Pero sabi ni Tito okay lang naman daw. (Sabi sayo hon eh! Nagustuhan ni papa mo) Hihi, ayun lang. At kagaya ng lagi namang nakasanayan, laging sinasabi ni Mahal na hindi daw masarap yung luto ko (pero naubos niya, kulang nalang dilaan yung plato. Hahahaha! Naku, yari ako dun pag nabasa niya nanaman 'to) Hehehe, eh totoo naman. Yung para sa kapatid niya na tinira ko eh kinain niya na. Hahaha! Told 'ya, nagustuhan mo yung luto ko. Umamin ka na kasi! ;) Nagrerequest pa siya na next time daw Chicken Curry naman daw yung lutuin ko. Yes boss! Basta ikaw bibili ng ingredients. Hehehehe.

Isa pang ginawa namin ni Mahal kanina eh naglinis ng kwarto niya na puro aikabok. Grabe lang, Hahaha! May study table na kasi siya sponsored by her loving sister. Di na kasi kasya yung crib sa kwarto kaya binigay na sakanya yung study table. "STUDY" table, what the eff. Sabi nga niya "Yehey! May studytable na ko kahit di naman ako nagsstudy". Grabe lang talaga. Mahal na mahal ko 'tong lalaking 'to. Madami mang pagsubok at problema ang dumaan kaya kong maging matatag para lang sa relasyon namin.

Di ko pa pala nablog yung nangyari nung 01·24·2013. Nothing important, eesh. Choss lang. Basta, nakakalungkot lang. Owsiya, matutuog na ko. Sermon na naman ako neto kay Mahal bukas eh, nagpupuyat na naman ako. Looking forward for another happy day with him tomorrow. Gosh! Crushmates kami bukas. Hihi ;"> Landi ko lang. Gdnight! ;)

- t ♥

[carpediemsirene]

01·07·13 x Masarap pala mag-aral.

Siguro nga hindi talaga maiiwasan yung bagsak or mababang grade pero ngayon ko lang narealize masarap pala mag-aral. Kasi kapag dumating na yung exam tapos ang dali dali nung tanong tas hindi mo masagot parang nakakapanghinayang. Tapos kapag nag-aral ka talaga tapos ang taas ng grade mo ang sarap sa pakiramdam. Hehe, walalaaaang. Hindi ko alam kung anong espiritu ng kasipagan ang pumasok sa katawang lupa ko ngayong araw na 'to. Ang saya saya ko talaga, buti na lang andyan si BabyLove para mainspire ako lalo mag-aral. Feeling ko talaga lucky charm ko siya. Tatlo na lang problema ko, yung English ko (the fucking thesis thingy), yung Law (</3) at yung Commnication Research. Kaya yaaaaan! AMEN.

[carpediemsirene]

Dearest thesis,

What the fuck do you want? Can't you just fucking get out of my curriculum (As if naman pwede, hell-o communication student ka hija), such a bullshit. I never dream to be a researcher someday. And now what, we still have a fucking writen exam aside from you. Damn! ARGH. I hate you, I seriously hate you. Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you.