#howtofallinlove

[thistransboyneedslove]

"How To Fall in Love With Yourself" - A Poem by Me

I love love though it’s hard to put that into loving myself

I love Netflix movies that everyone hates, Irish tea, how potato chips taste so good

I love the shade of blue called Prussian and singing in the shower and Tessa Thompson

I want to write about love because I come from a generation where if I identify as aromantic, that means I am a robot who can’t feel anything

Let’s talk about the colors in sunsets but don’t fall in love with sunsets

Fall in love with Mother Nature and her child the Earth instead

Fall in love with the water that feels cool no matter what season, the air that helps us all breathe and doesn’t get mad if it gets left on read

Fall in love with the moon because it will always be there every night to say hello and won’t leave you on read

Fall in love with the people learning how to love themselves and remind them that you’ll be there to remind them each reason why your dimples appear when you think of them

I love that my father showed me it’s okay to cry even when the world told him he shouldn’t

I love that my niece knows just what I need in a bad mood and will agree with everything I’m saying when I vent

I love that my aunt understands what it means to be afraid of men in your life and how hard it is to let someone touch you

I love that there are thousands of people on the internet who understand how much I hate sex and how awesome it is when you finally figure out you do

I love that my therapist helped me choose my name and agrees that dysphoria is a scientific word, not a gender identity

I love that the girls I grew up with still contact me on Instagram and will like every photo even if we weren’t very good friends in high school

[someonetookmynamefirst-blog]

The first time...

... always feels special. My heart didn’t jump into the courtyard of the bar when we met, but I vomited relief when we parted. Grateful. I wish you had told me what you meant when you wrote “weird” and “awkward.” That it not only meant long stretches of silence. Single line responses. But spacing out, repeatedly, and not realizing there was another person with you, at the table. I was surprised you wanted cupcakes afterwards. Yes, I simply replied, when you asked. Although I haven’t had a cupcake since 2004, when my auntie hosted a welcome party for me with juicy red velvet cupcakes, from Vons. Who is Vons, I asked. My auntie laughed. And plugged a phone charger in her mouth. 

The first time always feels special.

[reticentcerulean]

How

Since spending time alone means mostly observing, I have started finding it odd to see human express emotions on there faces. Where I live, people are either mad or holding on to a neutral face to cover whatever deceitful or depressed souls they have. When someone smiles, at me or just in general, I find it very intriguing. You have lips? You can move them? Stretch them? Your forehead, it also wrinkles. How can such an emotion flow from you, flow from someone that forgot how to be the so called and mainstreamed kind and generous person?

How can anyone show emotions on their faces? And what happened to the time when that was easy? When that was the “thing” ?

I need friends. This is becoming clearer, now that I have found that being alone isn’t going to fix or help me as much as listening to someone else’s voice outside my head. But here’s the question, which I struggle with now even more than I did before as a child; how do you make friends? Where do you get them from? How do you even end up friends with someone you talked to while running out of that dire educational building? How? And also, how do you love? How do you see this someone, feel comfortable around them and then love them? Where do you get him from? Is there a shop for this? Is it the hashtags on your social media accounts? How?

[iamryna]

#howtofallinlove

[futur-z]

If only I knew an handsome, tattooed, gifted pianist to play me that .... #subliminalmessages #piano #eriksatie #howtofallinlove #sweet #pianist (à Pau, France)

[isabellachao]

「如果沒有明天，我們會是如何？我們擁有的將會是今天。若真是如此，我希望能與你度過最漫長的今天，我要跟你一起填滿這一天，做我最愛的一切。我會歡笑，我會說話，我會傾聽與學習，我會愛，我會愛，我會愛。我要讓每一天都是今天，全部與你共度；我從不擔心明天，那個沒有你的明天。當恐怖的明天找上我們，請記住，我不想離開你，或是被你捨下。請記住，與你在一起的分分秒秒是我人生中最美好的時光。」 Remind me the movie—Breathe! Beautiful love story !! #howtofallinlove #ceceliaahern #14天的約定

[sweetiecheressehamlett]

It starts with you suga #selfcaretips #selflove #iwantlove #howtofallinlove #love #care #meme

[lepetitmondedeju]

#nowreading Tombée du ciel - Cecelia Ahern #Tombeeduciel #CeceliaAhern #HowToFallInLove (à Le Grand-Quevilly)