#hu1ksmash

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“ let  me  take  care  of  you. “

bucky knows what bruce means when he says that. and he thinks he knows why he's saying that. lately, bucky has been more and more of himself. whatever that means, and he's all about bruce now that the dust has settled, the complicated pieces falling into place. but this isn't and it has never been just about sex. and while bucky finds himself unable to say it, out loud as it is just being barely able to show it. he's been trying to get the message across.

the problem is that caring about someone, is that caring sometimes goes both ways.

the instinct is to resist, but when bruce says those words and he means them when he's saying them it kind of takes bucky's breath away. blue eyes glimmer with some sort of deep feeling that he can't speak on. it doesn't take him out of it, the heaviness of the moment, shirts off, pants barely on, on the couch like they can't get their hands off each other long enough to get into the bedroom. bucky's hand on bruce's face...framing it. and bucky barnes is intimately familiar with wanting. with yearning. the feeling never truly goes away. even after getting here, even after being together before it makes his heart swell. he smiles slowly, whatever worry or hesitation that was there leaves him. kisses bruce once or twice before "-yeah. okay." it's softer, always this sensation haunting him where vulnerability is concerned. bruce will take care of him. and that's okay. more than okay.

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[011945]

it had been a while since bucky had to kill someone, upclose and personal. for the most part it had been immobilizing them, knocking them down. shooting at them, incapacitating them. but this one. he had to die. simply as that. a part of him made the decision, he made the call. bruce isn't defenseless, but the hulk is more of a last resort at moments like this. he couldn't, wouldn't risk it. (he never wants for his own weird hang ups to put bruce in situations he doesn't want to be in. bruce is here for the other stuff, the smart shit that bucky hadn't really bothered to learn. that the winter soldier once had control of it when asked to.)

sender sits down quietly next to receiver after receiver kills someone @hu1ksmash.

that's it, they've cleared the house and bucky doesn't feel bad about it. he is once more on the right side of history, he thinks. he believes. wants to believe. the last missions, the groundwork, he'd been pulling his punches. a part of him knew that, a part of him let go. and now they're here. he feels bruce sit next to him more than he sees it. his eyes zeroed in on the blood. it's going to get some getting used to. he doesn't want to let go of this life, not until he's set the record straight again. keeping in. no one's forcing him to do this, the avengers, the whole crew. we could use a man of your skills. steve had said. light eyes, turn to bruce. "you got what we need?" it's a disconnected sort of speech in the manner he used to talk back when he started showing up unannounced in his apartment, terrified of being seen. bruce for the most part had always seen the aftermath of the winter soldier. never bucky actively wearing the mask, the skin. it's freeing. it's a little concerning. if it would change bruce's thoughts on him. if it would confirm others. they're picking them up soon. keeping it all in check, no where to run, no way to avoid. lips pressed into a line before swallowing. sorry about this. sorry i'm like this. not entirely human. not entirely a weapon.