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[byakuyasdarling]

Happy 5th anniversary to my fictional husband ♥️

It’s so crazy to think about all the stages of life I’ve been through with him. Although I’ve hardly gotten to draw them this year, I hope you all know it’s not out of lack of care. This year, I’ve truly been able to regrow back into myself and my confidence. True, I still have much to work through — my trust issues within relationships being a huge one. However, I feel it important now to focus on developing myself before seeking a relationship, as I’ve been doing for the last year now. So for now, being with him still is a great gift- it always will be considering the talent and stability this has provided to continue being my best self.

I truly feel I have a good future ahead of me at last once more. I think am slowly regaining my focus again; I haven’t felt myself for the last 3 years until now.

[byakuyasdarling]

// art is two years old

It was my birthday today 🎉🎉🎉 I finally had a relaxing day, though I’m pretty swamped for the whole month (4 of those occasions encompassing my birthday). I feel so loved and happy, but I’m glad to just relax with my husband at the end of the day (◕‿◕)♡

[byakuyasdarling]

I don’t work for another 5 days now, so I should now recover and get better despite being so busy still… I have a few things to do for uni and it’s really triggering my anxiety (on top of other things) but I’m trying to be okay.

There’s still a lot of good things to look forward too <3 I’ve made so much progress over the last few months and even my family says I just look a lot more mature. I guess my eyes have changed a bit in some way, or how I hold my expressions.

I deserve to be loved and happy ♥️♥️ he is my fictional husband and I love him so much. I hope I can finish my comfort drawing soon.

[byakuyasdarling]

hello lovely people :)

I have my job induction tomorrow (I’m already hired, dw) and I’m so nervous T-T ♥️ I got all the apps they asked us to download (5), work-appropriate shoes, and have sussed-out (I hope I’m using that right) the bus routes I have to take.

Social interaction can really make me anxious, uncomfortable and tense at times, causing my head to burn. It’s not a safe environment for me but I’m sure I’ll fake it well and be okay.

I love my Mister so much *grabby hands* ♥️♥️

[byakuyasdarling]

Still, people have the capacity to be so kind.

Today, a high school boy let me take his seat on the bus because he saw I wasn’t great at standing. And then a girl offered me a candy cane while I was on the job because I looked stressed. And then the bus driver drove me to the correct stop when I realised I deludedly hopped on the wrong bus free of charge. It’s the little things, you know?

[byakuyasdarling]

I always thought this style was a little funky but he looks so handsome,,, he deserves a smooch from me ♥️♥️♥️

.. he likes to rest his nose against her cheek or something and that's kinda his version of being affectionate, at least at first; he is very stiff for a while when it comes to hugs and such. it's a small gesture but it means a lot to him.

[byakuyasdarling]

I love to think about what Byakuya and S/I love about one another, vocalised or not. S/I loves his resilience, his willpower, his honesty, his determination, and his loyalty. Byakuya loves her grounded compassion, her strong morality, her intelligence, her warmth, and her gentleness (with him).

🌸♥️🍓 — <3

[byakuyasdarling]

Goodnight everyone <3 I’m praying my head is functional and everything goes well tomorrow. I’m trying to be confident and not set my standard too high as well — but if I get this my health would majorly improve. If not, I’m going to have to go really out of my comfort zone to find a job. I have seen so many pretty dress shops recently,,, I’m imaging finally dressing how I truly want.

I love my husband so much ♥️♥️ I need his hugs and cuddles (even if he’s a bit stiff and awkward with it, haha). All my kisses and love xx I think I’m just really tired (it’s beyond 1am, I’ve just been really worried) but I really wish I could actually fall asleep with him. I want to take care of him too, I want to wash his hair and bathe him and cook and bake and garden and clean all for him <3 I do that for my family as is, but it’s so different.