To my Fellow Projectors participating in the Human Design discovery as part of your spiritual path.
Human Design is what I'm the newest to, compared to Astrology and Tarot, and it's currently the top layer of acquiring learning and personal understanding for me. On this journey, I shared my process in related Facebook groups and through that discussion I came to some conclusions of my own, that I think could be helpful to other Projectors.
I'm really thankful for all for the supportive comments, and those that have messaged me in private. Soundboarding in the group made me realise, that it takes time to enter into alignment as a Projector, at least in our times still. Following your strategy and authority gets you in the right place in life, but it takes time when you're raised by an abusive family environment, and most of us are. My pain, and I think the pain of most Projectors, comes from the conflict between inner awareness of how our life should be, and the fact that the outside hasn't supported that. Again, it takes time to turn over a new leaf and have a life where you're invited into being yourself. I've been working at it relentlessly for years and I don't give myself enough credit for it, because the environment I tried to break out of has been attacking me in the meantime.
If you're effectively trying to improve your life, even if the results are not instant and you're in pain in the meantime, that's good enough. I think people in Projector communities don't talk about it enough. Instead the narrative is something along the lines of "if you were a good Projector, you would be already having a perfect life, you're just not living your design correctly". That does not give credit to a whole wave of Projectors trying to effectively make changes in their life to get there, and it doesn't give them validation for how hard this process is.
Living your Design is your Birthright, but in our current level of evolution as human society, it is still a privilege, one most of us are not raised into, but detoured out of. A feeling of relief, most of us have to really struggle for, even if the struggle is coming from the outside. As a Projector you have your own fight, to realize nothing was ever wrong with you in the first place, and show that very truth to others.
