new years kisses / @hwanidol
it's intimidating, being around famous people. there's something about how put together they are -- they've been in this business for years. and while jay really has no inclination towards the same sort of lifestyle that they have ( he can't even sing ), it's still very... well, scary to be in a room full of people who are so successful at what they do.
honestly, he feels like an amateur. ( and his brain reminds him that that's exactly what he is. )
shuffling, he keeps himself to the edges of the party. ( he wasn't even sure why he was here -- some of the members of his dance troupe said they'd blend right in, but right now, jay doesn't feel like he's invisible. he feels like he's a walking, talking sore thumb. )
he's found solace in a few friendly faces -- some familiar, some not. one comes in the form of juhwan -- or hwan, as he preferred to be called. making friends is hard when the entertainment world can be so cut throat, but jay's honestly relieved when hwan spots him in the crowd. ( he's patient, for starters, and doesn't mind the extended periods of silence between jay's sentences. small talk is not his forte -- perhaps that's why he doesn't go to parties, or events, when invited. he's much better in a smaller, quieter setting. )
as the night lingers on, jay feels his nerves settling, feels the walls around him starting to come down. he's wrapped up in conversation with the other man -- something about a recent audition he'd been on -- when the party erupts into cheers.
( it must be midnight, he thinks. )
jay's content to go back to his conversation ( now that he's comfortable, he won't shut up ), but he's taken aback at the gentle kiss that hwan presses against his cheek. he's sure it reads on his face, too -- wide eyes blink back at the other man, and jay feels the sudden flush that creeps up his neck.









