#hyacinth tabris

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If the Warden was trapped in a nightmare, what would it be like? for all three of them (fen shea and hyacinth)

Got a bit prose-y with this one.

Fen'telathe Mahariel:

Endless underground corridors. Always searching. Always just out of reach. He's still missing. You never found him.

You can't save him.

You can't save him.

You can't save him.

You will never save him.

The Brecillian forest. They're there. Somewhere. You just can't catch up. You see a flicker of something through the trees. A whisper of familiar laughter on the breeze.

You call out.

No one answers.

You can't go home.

You can't go home.

You can't go home.

You can never go home.

You will never go home.

You are lost.

You will always be lost.

Shea Surana:

Your chest feels hollowed out. It's cold, quiet. You reach out, trying to feel the Fade, trying to feel Survival.

No response.

Only a pervasive emptiness where the familiar comfort you'd grown so used to had been.

You ache.

You're surrounded by Templars. He's there. He's smiling in that awful, smug, self-assured way you've come to know so well. He's going to drag you back to the Circle. He'll make you Tranquil- even though you passed your Harrowing. It will be like before, but this time, there's no hope.

You'll have nothing.

Irving can no longer protect you(Not that he did before).

(Did he know?)

(He couldn't have known)

(How could he not have known?)

(He would have done something if he'd known-)

(I think we both know that's not true)

You will have no chance to become First Enchanter. To gain enough power and influence to ensure he can never touch you again.

You will never be safe.

You will always be trapped.

You will always be his.

Hyacinth Tabris:

Everything is perfect. Nesiara, your newlywed wife, is there. You've moved into your own place. She's perfect, actually. Everything is perfect. You can't complain. You should want this. You don't want this. It's what your whole life has been leading up to.

You should want this.

You should want this.

You can't.

Nesiara is perfect. Your father is happy. Your father is proud of you. Shianni is happy. Shianni is unharmed. Shianni was never hurt in the first place. Soris and Valora are happy. Your father can't wait to be a grandfather. He is so, so proud.

This is what you should want. You don't. You can't. You can't let any of them know. You can't ruin this for the rest of them.

You can't escape.

Nesiara is perfect. It's not her fault. There's something wrong with you. It's always been you. You can't let her find out. She doesn't deserve this. It's not her fault. She didn't ask for this either.

There's something wrong with you.

You don't know how to fix it.

No one can ever know.

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your ship as text posts

Tagged by @cacturne! Thank you! Tagging @screature-feature, and I'm having trouble remembering who amongst my da circle has already been tagged so feel free to ignore me if you've gotten this before(or just do a new ship because yay! yippee!) so @sha-brytols, @andrewknightley, @paragondreams, @hightowerqueen, and @fellamorte!

For Fen/Morrigan!

Took so goddamn long to do this b/c I don't have any screenshots w/ my characters in them b/c the games just can't do them justice, so I had to sketch shit up myself lol

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your oc as the patron saint of...

take this uquiz as your ocs and share the results

Tagged by @gyrovagi thank you! I had a lot of fun with this!

so at first I was just gonna do my wardens, since my worldstate has 7 whole people in it and that's too many but then I did take the quiz for all seven of them for funsies and got different results for each of them and then. yeah.

tagging @screature-feature @sha-brytols & @mageknife no pressure tho <3

[theredjenny]

hyacinth and fenris?

Y'know that would definitely be way less messy than Atlas and Fenris since Hyacinth is by far the chillest of my DA guys 🤣 The biggest roadblock would be getting Hyacinth to the point where he's actually aware that relationships with other men are on the table- but he's also just a really patient and understanding guy- though tbh I think that might be incredibly unnerving for Fenris given everything. Dunno how well anyone in the Kirkwall crew would respond to a guy who's down for open and honest healthy communication styles and is sitting there patiently ready to talk whenever they're ready but isn't gonna push it. That's scary. He's in the wrong genre.

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and 2, 20, 28 for warden of your choice~

2. How would you describe the Warden's personality before and after the prologue? Did it change much or did they remain the same?

Answering this one for Fen since there's definitely the biggest difference there.

Before the prologue Fen was a very confident and easygoing person. Pretty laid back, enjoying her life and very content. She had a good thing going with Merrill, and enjoyed getting into trouble with Tamlen from time to time. She had a loud, boisterous, warm, laugh that was frequently heard across the camp.

After the prologue she's incredibly depressed. She did not want to leave Clan Sabrae. She did not want to stop searching for Tamlen. The survivors guilt is hitting hard. She hasn't lost her confidence, but it doesn't present in the same easygoing way it used to. She has a much sharper edge to her now. The vibrant spark of life is gone and her eyes lost the mischievous twinkle they used to have, cold and hard in a way they never were before.

20. Is there anyone in camp who they do not like? Why?

So for Shea- she's the only one who has like, strong feelings of dislike towards any of the companions(aside from Oghren but we're ignoring him for the sake of this ask). And even then it's like… complicated. She's like fine but distant with everyone but Morrigan and Wynne and she has. Complicated feelings about the two of them.

With Wynne there's that complicated former Circle mage thing going on- and the fact that life in the Circle was always hellish for Shea and Wynne is still vocally fairly pro-Chantry/pro-Circle even after All Of That with the Broken Circle questline. Which gets further complicated once it's revealed that Wynne had a child, and she's still talking about Templars being necessary. And even further complicated once they run into Aneirin and Shea sees that he's a pale, red headed, elf and she feels some kind of way(Bad. Very bad) about the parallels there.

Shea just. Doesn't talk to Wynne after that. Avoids being in situations where that might come up. Puts as much distance between herself and Wynne as possible. Tries not to think about it. Tries not to think about how Wynne looks at her.

With Morrigan, though, well- she agrees with Morrigan about most things. She's glad someone is actually voicing those opinions because she doesn't want to rock the boat. But then Morrigan says something about Circle mages and it's all down hill from there- because Shea had respected Morrigan's thoughts and opinions, Morrigan and Shea have very, very similar opinions in regards to altruism and like where the groups priorities should lie. Shea doesn't understand why Hyacinth is constantly going out of his way to help every random person that asks for it, she considers it a complete waste of their time, and is glad there's at least someone around who's on the same page as her and willing to say something about it even if nobody actually listens.

Like yes- Shea has been pining a little for Fen ever since the Hookup Incident but it's more of a carnal thing than a romantic thing so while she's somewhat jealous of Morrigan it wasn't anything terrible.

But then she says shit about how Circle mages just allowed themselves to be subjugated. And if it were her she would simply choose not to. And why do they put up with such a miserable pathetic existence they should just throw themselves from the tower or whatever Etc. Etc. Etc.

Now she'd really love to strangle Morrigan.

28. During the Landsmeet, who did the Warden choose to rule Ferelden and why? How did they come to that decision?

Okay so for this one it's gotta be Hyacinth because he is the one making the decisions- Anyways he went for Anora/Alistair co-ruling. He recognizes that Anora is more politically savvy and would make a great queen on that front specifically. But also he is a Tabris, and he recognizes that Anora would be incredibly unlikely to do anything positive for the elves of Fereldan in general, or have much motivation to make the lives of the elves in the Denerim Alienage less shit. So he's going to push for Alistair to be there too because at least over the course of their travels they've become good friends and Hyacinth has some hope that having him there too will push things in a more progressive direction in terms of the overall treatment of elves in Fereldan.

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Ok I know this was going on a few days ago but it's fun so I'm just gonna be late to the party. First kills for my DA PCs:

Hyacinth Tabris: He was 21. No special story here, this one was just straight up during his origin. One of the guards he had to fight through to get to Shianni and the others. It's not even something that sticks out as significant to him. Vaughan and Co. were the ones who mattered. He didn't love how unbothered he was by the fact that he killed so many people over the course of one afternoon even if they had it coming.

Fen'telathe Mahariel: She was 20 or so, defending Clan Sabrae from a group of humans that attacked while they were traveling. Some poor motherfucker decided to go after Merrill and got Fen's sword through their middle in response.

Shea Surana: She was 19. Over the course of DAO, she tended to hang back from combat and mostly focus on keeping party members up. But during the broken circle questline when they reached the third floor and most of the combat involved fighting charmed or possessed Templars she was suddenly actually using her more aggressive spells, and actively participating in combat. Given Shea's fairly withdrawn nature, everybody in the party very politely decided not to comment on this. She allowed herself the vulnerability of a panic attack once she was alone in the privacy of her tent at camp the next day.

Atlas Hawke: He was like 16 trying to be a fun silly older brother and help magic practice be more fun and less like. Scary. Brought both twins with him for a fun romp in the woods out to a secluded area. Or well it was supposed to be secluded. Showing Carver and Bethany fun little tricks that he'd figured out, making little lightshows for them with fire and ice. Creating a fun like ice skating obstacle course chase game for them. The twins vs. Atlas. Let's see if they can take down big brother together. Anyways they were having too much fun I guess. Laughter and giggles got too loud. Caught the attention of a couple of templar recruits who had snuck off for a break for their own reasons. Not expecting to find some apostate mage kids just like... playing. Atlas yelled for the twins to run, Bethany dragged Carver off with her, and Atlas made absolutely sure to keep the Templars' attention focused on him while the twins ran. He was able to keep the Templars at a distance and use the icy obstacle course he'd built for the twins for fun to his advantage. So first kill specifically was like fairly quick, distance casting for the win. The second one less so because the second templar was able to close the distance while he dealt with the first guy. Slipped on the ice and dropped his sword, but was able to pull Atlas down with him, and that was a much scarier, more brutal and bloody kill, and why Atlas's staffs are always also just polearms, because having something sharp on hand as a last resort was literally life saving. He has a bit of a breakdown about it while still like sitting next to the corpse, but pulls himself together by the time Malcolm finds him, still sitting there, just kind of dead eyed, beat to shit and covered in blood. They moved again very shortly after.

Thyrias Lavellan: Early 20s, some drunk idiot human decided to be stupid. Lucky for Thyrias it was late at night, he's small and quick, and the drunk guy didn't have a solid grip on his weapon. It was easy enough to make it look like an accidental death, so nobody got suspicious when the body was found the next morning.

Adaian De Riva: They were 9. They really would have become the perfect Crow if they hadn't been taken in by Hyacinth and Zevran before the end of their Crow training. They had a strong will to survive and the ruthlessness required to make it through the early years of Crow training. Their first kill was a slightly older Crow recruit, that they bested during training. The assassin overseeing things that day decided that if a nine year old was able to best the older kid then the older kid didn't have what it would take to be an assassin anyways, whether they were soft enough to go easy on the younger kid, or just not skilled enough to win. And instructed Adaian to finish the job. They didn't feel any guilt or remorse in the moment but now they try not to think about it, and wish they could forget.

Actias Lavellan: 17, magic tutoring with Dorian went sideways when an assassin showed up. They were prepared for magical combat. Less prepared for the Dalish kid who had uncanny aim and a killer throwing arm. Dorian was less than pleased about the loss of one of his fancy paper weights and the bloody mess and shattered skull fragments on the floor of his study, but was relieved that they both made it out of that mostly unscathed, so didn't make a huge deal out of it. They both agreed not to mention the incident to Thyrias or Bull because neither of them wanted to deal with the worrying or insistence on increased security while Actias was spending time with her favorite parent. Actias was much less emotionally affected by this incident than she thought she was probably supposed to be, which bothered her more than the fact that she just killed a man.

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Oh ok do not remember if I've made this post yet or not but I know I've thought hard about it. Anyways:

It's very fun and funny to me how like Hyacinth is the friendliest of my Wardens and the best at putting people at ease and just seeming like a nice young man. And then there's Shea and Fen who are both very off putting women. Shea is just weird and unsettling. And then Fen just has threatening vibes. So everyone looks at this group of Wardens and is like 'hm I feel safest around this nice young man actually'

And Hyacinth is the only one that actually killed people during his origin.

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5, 7 and 9 for warden tabris?

5. Did Tabris stop to talk with the children playing? If so, how did they handle the children saying they didn’t know any elven heroes?

Yeah! Hyacinth is really friendly so he definitely stopped to talk with the kids. The kids saying they didn’t know any elven heroes kinda hit him in a like ‘oh shit. You’re right. Fuck. I don’t know any either do I? Nothing off the top of my head at least.’ But instead of admitting to that, he made up a story about Tathas a sneaky elven thief who stole from the rich to give to the poor who simply disappeared one day and nobody knows for sure what happened to her. Figured it’s good to give the kids something they can really dig into fun silly imagination territory with.

7. If Tabris was kidnapped, what was their plan before Sorris showed up? If Tabris launched a rescue mission, what was their motivation to do so like?

I mean that’s his cousin. That’s his cousin Shianni who’s basically his sister. Like there’s a world where he doesn’t try to save his cousin?? And also just generally speaking the whole situation is fucked and awful, and nobody deserves to be in that position even if he doesn’t know them personally. He’s got these rogue skills he’s gonna use them. Especially after like, a life time of seeing/hearing about things like this happening, and being too young to actually do anything about it/help in any meaningful way, like… shit man. The guy doesn’t even want to get married, but he’s not just going to sit there waiting and just vaguely hope that the women get returned to them later in one piece. Like the grey area of ‘but if you do this then the humans are almost certainly going to retaliate worse’ does register. He’s not blind to it. It’s just like? He doesn’t control the choices that other people make. He controls his choices. And he was definitely a mama’s boy, he knows his mom would’ve done something. It’s not wrong to fight back against oppression. It like helps that he’s going into it fully willing to take total blame for whatever happens, and like hoping? That if he does, it’ll make the consequences for everyone else less bad? He’s not really expecting to survive, which is a different kind of fucked up for sure, he’s just hoping that maybe the humans will be satisfied if they have a guy to pin it all on and execute.

9. What was growing up in the alienage like for Tabris? How did they feel about having to leave?

Ooo this is fun. It was a mixed bag. Like Hyacinth loves and adores his family and community. So much. So so much. It’s also! A fairly small insular community, with customs around like? Adulthood being inherently related to marriage, and this ever present expectation of marriage and eventually children. And it is not that they are homophobic necessarily. It’s that the concept of queerness, the concept of someone being gay… is just literally never brought up? And so Hyacinth gets older and realizes that he’s into men, and like cannot make himself be into women. And is like ‘shit fuck hell damn there is something wrong with me’. Because his whole life he’s been shown that like reaching adulthood is synonymous with (straight)marriage. And so he’s just sitting here assuming that being gay is a him thing, and nobody else has ever had this problem(he feels…… very stupid… after meeting Zevran and Leliana and learning that this is like… super fucking normal). And so he like! Loves his family! Loves his community! And also! Lives in like constant dread of the inevitable marriage that awaits him because he knows he is not gonna be able to love that woman in the way that he’s supposed to and he feels! Really bad! About that!!! And so getting conscripted into the Grey Wardens is like. This massive weight off of his shoulders. And in the moment it’s a relief. Like the everything else about it will hit him later, but in the moment it’s this huge relief of ‘Oh wow not only am I gonna live through this, my life can be something different than that future that was laid out for me my whole life that always felt completely inescapable and terrifying.’