Moon 39, Part 4, POV Lester
Cats: Goldstar, Plumsong, Lester, Quietback, Buzzardglide, Almondfern, Leafpaw, Chickpaw
TW/CW: Mentioned animal death, body horror, dead body, cremation
Her litter was missing.
No one noticed right away, but when patrols were called, their absence was noticed. Lester didn't think much of it, not until Almondfern came into the medicine cats' den looking for them.
"Are your kits in here putting on protection?" he asked, looking around a little anxiously.
"No. Why?" Lester said, looking up from the dose she was preparing for Tulipscratch.
Plumsong was currently helping Morb with some exercises to keep her front legs strong.
"We, uh, can't find them. They're not in any dens or down at the water, and no one is out on patrol now." Almondfern said and alarm prickled through Lester.
She had been in the den all day save to grab some breakfast, she would have seen them.
"They haven't been in here at all." she said, forgetting about the herbs she was preparing.
Lester felt her tail bush up a little, fear sliding into her. Because obviously, her litter had snuck out of camp. What else could they have done? Where else could they have been? And without protection... They knew to find shelter at the slightest hint of a rainfall, but they never left camp now without protection for a reason...
She swallowed hard.
"Lester, it's all right. We'll organize patrols and find them. They might be new apprentices, but they're smart. They know what to do about rainfalls and Unseen, and have since they were kits." Almondfern said soothingly, though she could tell he was worried, too.
"Go. We can handle things here." Plumsong said and Lester didn't need to be told twice.
She raced to put on protection as Almondfern went to inform Goldstar of the situation, and patrols began to be divided, cats putting on protection.
Almondfern was in one patrol, Laurelbright in the second, and Stoneleaf in the third, and Lester joined Almondfern's patrol with Quietback in the lead, Buzzardglide joining them.
Quietback carried the conch and Lester felt worry and anxiety fill her as Goldstar issued instructions, she and Skypelt then leading the other patrols. They were sent toward the beaches, Skypelt and her patrol heading toward the other territories, Goldstar and her's heading in the general direction of the lighthouse.
They spread out but stayed in hearing range of each other, and searched carefully. Eventually, they picked up the scent of her kits, and Lester felt a sense of relief go through her.
"It looks like they could be headed to the Beach of Stars." Quietback commented, sniffing at the grass.
"We hadn't taken them there yet, but they were keen to go. I think they were hopeful in connecting with Starclan." Almondfern piped up and Lester wanted to laugh just a little.
In relief, because they had found them, and it could have really just been as harmless as wanting to connect with Starclan. Lester had her doubts about the powers o the starry clan, but her kits could believe whatever they wanted, and they seemed to share many of their clanmates beliefs. Of course they would want to see if the ancestors could reach them, even if they hadn't reached anyone in a very long time. They were just kits, after all, barely six moons, so curious in a world that had suddenly gotten so much larger.
They began to head that way, following the scent trail, and it was clear her kits had come this way some time ago, had been missing longer than anyone had noticed. But they were headed for the Beach of Stars, and Lester was still anxious, but she felt herself relaxing just a little bit more.
Until they saw the clouds, that was.
They were still a good distance from the Beach of Stars when Quietback spotted them rolling over the ocean, directly toward the beach, and Lester's fur fluffed up when the scent carried on the sudden gusting wind, because it was a rainfall, not a normal rain. Thunder and lightning to go with it, a big storm, the biggest rainfall she had seen.
Quietback sounded the conch and the rest of them began to move, Lester frozen.
"Lester, come on! We need to find shelter, just in case!" Quietback said, stopping as Almondfern and Buzzardglide dashed toward the trees.
Lester felt something in her chest seize.
"It's over the beach- my kits-" she stammered out, wanting to plunge forward into a run.
Quietback must have realized that, because he dashed over to her and seized her scruff in his teeth, hauling her back.
Lester didn't fight him, because she knew he was right, but her heart was pounding as he dragged her to shelter, and Quietback kept himself pressed against her. They waited it out, and it was massive. It didn't come at them, luckily, but it struck a swath as large as the Beach of Stars, pressing up into the hills. Seasons came and went in a quick cycle and when it was over, the land was a mess of new-leaf and green-leaf, but that was better than leaf-fall and leaf-bare.
The storm disappeared as quickly as it had come and they searched the sky for rainbows, but when they saw none, they broke free of cover. Lester didn't even hesitate, didn't try to find the scent trail; she just ran for the beach.
The others were on her tail and they reached the soaked expanse of black sand, making their way down, and then Lester spotted Leafpaw and Chickpaw. They were crying and crouched over something, and her paws kicked up sand as she flew toward them.
"Leafpaw! Chickpaw!" she cried and they turned toward her in a daze.
She still couldn't see what they were in front of, not clearly, and she skidded to a halt in front of them, checking them frantically, but their ginger pelts were untouched.
"Oh, babies, oh, you worried me so much!"
"Mama-"
"Mama, we... Mama..."
"Where is your brother?" Lester demanded after checking them and Chickpaw let out a wail, burying his head in her shoulder.
"Lester..." Quietback said and Lester looked at what her sons had been crouched over.
The soaked body of an old, thin cat rested in the sand, limp and streaming water, and Lester stared. She didn't understand, she didn't know why Chickpaw was sobbing so hard, it didn't make sense.
Quietback cautiously nudging the body and Lester saw a patch of brilliant ginger fur, untouched by the rain, and Leafpaw swallowed his sobs.
"He got caught in the storm, Mama." he whispered and collapsed on the sand.
Lester stared at the body, and it took her a few moments longer to realize what Leafpaw meant, what...
"No. No, no, that's not... No..." she whispered, creeping over to the body.
But the shape of the face, the shape of the body... It was Whimsypaw. Older, yes, turned white by the rain, but it was her Whimsy.
Lester stared, not breathing, not... Not doing anything except staring at the changed, strange body of her son for a long moment. When the keening sound started, she thought for a moment it was Leafpaw or Chickpaw, but then she realized it was her. She staggered forward and fell across Whimsypaw's body, pulling him close, beginning to sob.
"No, my baby... My baby..." she cried, and she didn't know how long she cried.
Leafpaw and Chickpaw pressed against her, mourning too, and Lester tried to pull herself together, because they needed her, she was worried by how shocked and dazed they had seemed when they had arrived. But she couldn't. She couldn't let go of her kit, she couldn't stop the sobs and the cries tearing themselves from her throat, and she wasn't aware of what the others were doing. She didn't realize that Quietback sent Buzzardglide back, nor did she see him comforting Almondfern, who was shedding tears of his own. Buzzardglide returned with Goldstar and Plumsong, and Plumsong was the one who pulled her away from Whimsypaw.
"Plumsong, no, please-" Lester cried, but he pulled her away, and away from her other kits as well.
"Lester. Lester, look at me." he ordered, she did.
She sniffled and stared at him, feeling dazed, her ears ringing.
"Your other kits need you. Whimsypaw needs to be burned. We'll hold a vigil for him afterward, but right now, we can't hesitate in case the Unseen come. You don't have to go, but Whimsypaw needs to be taken to be burned." he said firmly and Lester stared at him some more.
She balked at the idea of throwing Whimsypaw into the flames, but something in her reared up at the idea of not being there when it happened.
"No! No, I'm goin'. I'm takin' him to the Burnin' Caves, I am not leavin' him alone!" she hissed, feeling her fur rise despite the crusted protection.
"You can, but you need to get yourself together." Plumsong said sternly and Lester had the impulse to smack her claws across his face.
She restrained herself, and she remembered Flintfur being brought back to camp after he had died. Whimsypaw didn't even get that, but she understood why not, in the back of her mind. The circumstances were different.
She took a deep breath and quelled her tears, pulling herself together as quickly as she could.
"Could... Could I take him with you? He is- was- my apprentice." Almondfern asked her when she approached Whimsypaw's body, voice cracking.
Lester nodded and Goldstar and Plumsong were issuing instructions and Buzzardglide volunteered to come as well, considering the length of the journey.
"Mama... Mama, can we come?" Chickpaw asked, his voice trembling.
Lester couldn't deny them that, but she had to send them back to camp to get protection. They couldn't travel without it. Quietback sat with them and Buzzardglide promised to return with the kits, Goldstar and Plumsong promised to break the news to the clan.
This left Lester and Almondfern sitting beside Whimsypaw's body and they were silent, both grieving. Lester fell apart on the sand and it would only be later that they asked Leafpaw and Chickpaw what they had been doing. For now, all she knew was that she had almost lost all her kits and one of them was dead, and her heart was breaking. How could Whimsypaw be dead? She knew the rainfalls sped up time, and had heard the stories of that deer before she had joined, but she had never imagined...
Eventually, Buzzardglide brought her kits back and they had slings with herbs and some of the dried meat. From the smell of their breath, Plumsong had treated them for shock, and Lester ate her own dose before they set out. Buzzardglide carried Whimsypaw first; she was a tall and broad she-cat, and the weight was nothing for her.
Over the course of the journey, all three adults would take turns or bear his body together, and the apprentices would trail after them, they and Lester all staggering from shock and grief. Buzzardglide and Almondfern hunted and made sure they ate, and Lester curled up with her kits when they stopped at night, trying to keep herself together.
They reached the Burning Caves sooner than she had thought they would, and one of the Firewatchers spotted them as they were climbing up the path. Not one Lester knew, a warrior from one of the other clans, and the pale-speckled cat didn't move from their post.
"Buzzardglide?" they called out, and Buzzardglide lifted her head.
She was currently carrying Whimsypaw, Almondfern making sure he didn't slip, and Leafpaw and Chickpaw pressed closer to Lester. They had never met a cat from another clan before.
"Sparrowtail." Buzzardglide grunted and Sparrowtail leapt down to join them.
"Is that Jackdawnudge?" Sparrowtail asked softly.
"No. It's one of our apprentices. We'll explain after the burning. Goldstar would have sent messengers to the other clans by now." Buzzardglide said and Chickpaw whimpered.
Sparrowtail's mouth gaped open, but the tom closed it just as fast, and lead them the rest of the way.
Tumbledaisy and Petalcurrent had come to take their turn as Firewatchers just before, and Lester felt something squirm in her stomach at the realization that two of their clanmates didn't know. She didn't... She took a deep breath and nudged her sons forward as Sparrowtail went ahead to alert the others, a bit of apprehension in her. She hadn't been to the Burning Caves before, though maybe they should make sure all the cats in the clan, warriors or not, were familiar with this place.8/3/2026
She followed Buzzardtail in, her sons pressed against her, and the smell of smoke and fire made Lester want to back away, but she pressed forward. It was larger and brighter than she had thought it would be inside, but it was certainly unfriendly. The fires weren't immediately at the entrance, but they were close enough that the heat hit them before they were far. Lester let herself be guided through everything, watching as Buzzardglide set Whimsypaw down, and Sparrowtail led them to the living caves, though a cat was tending the fires.
They followed and met the other Firekeepers, cats from all clans, and Tumbledaisy and Petalcurrent rubbed against Lester, Leafpaw, and Chickpaw, clearly shaken but offering comfort. Lester explained about the rainfall, because she was not going to make her sons recount it. Everyone was clearly made uneasy by this, some clearly frightened, but it was also not a surprise that the rainfall had done this.
Goldstar had told the other clans about that deer Lester had heard about, after all.
After that, they wasted no time. There was no telling when an Unseen might come. A Kinkclan senior warrior, Alderfoot, lead them back to the Burning Cave and Lester swallowed hard.
"You don't have to do it, young'un. I'll get him into the flames." Alderfoot said when she hesitated beside Whimsypaw's body.
"I'll do it. I just... We need a minute." Lester said, swallowing hard.
The others backed up respectfully and Lester crouched down, pressing her nose into her son's fur. Her breath caught and Leafpaw and Chickpaw did the same, Lester dragging her tongue over Whimsypaw's pelt. She groomed him, because the journey had not been kind to him, and she didn't want him to be burned looking messy. They let her, but finally, Buzzardglide rested her tail on her shoulder, and Lester nodded.
She picked up Whimsypaw with Buzzardglide and together, they walked to the edge of the pit of flame. Lester didn't want to throw her baby into tem, she didn't want to burn him, but the body wasn't Whimsypaw anymore. He was in Starclan, hopefully, and his body was nothing more than a shell, empty and not him.
It wasn't him.
She repeated that over and over as she dropped his body into the flames and they backed up to a safe distance, Leafpaw and Whimsypaw pressing close to her when they had settled. And then, to her surprise, Alderfoot opened his jaws and began to sing.
"This one night, this one night
Every night and all.
Fire and sleet and starry light
And Starclan receive thy soul.
When from life away thouest past,
Every night and all.
To starry wood thou come at last,
And Starclan receive thy soul."
He continued the strange, haunting song, and Lester listened, realizing it spoke of the journey to Starclan. The words were strange and she wasn't sure if she believed in Starclan, but in this moment, she wanted to. Whimsypaw had and she hoped those starry cats were real, because if not...
They sat there for a long time, she and her kits, and the Firewatchers stayed with them, until, finally, they drew them into the living caves. Alderfoot's haunting song still filled Lester's ears and she was glad to settle in the nests, making sure her kits ate. They curled together, and they were left alone respectfully, Lester beginning to groom them.
They were crying and so was she, and she did her best for them, the two of them pressing so close. There was a stark gap where Whimsypaw should have been and Lester tried not to think of that, because her living kits needed her. And she knew that that gap would always be there, in some way or another.
Finally, when they were both groomed and all three of them exhausted from crying and grief, Lester asked the question she had wanted to for days. She hadn't asked it before, but she knew Goldstar would ask them when they got home, and she didn't want them to feel pressured or anything.
"Why were three at the beach?" she asked quietly, wondering if it was wrong to ask now.
But it had been several days already, and she hoped the worst of the sting had faded.
"We... We heard you and some of the others... Talking about a monster." Chickpaw whispered, gulping.
Then they both spilled out what they knew about the thing that was coming or lurking in the ocean, and Lester's fur stood on end. No, no, no. They weren't supposed to know, they weren't... She listened as they said they had gone looking for it and were trying to lure it out of the ocean, and everything else.
The fight, and how they had left Whimsypaw at the water, and by then they were both sobbing. Feeling guilty for leaving him there by himself. Lester comforted them, because it hadn't been their fault, it hadn't been, and she drew them as close as she could.
"Shh. Shh, it wasn't your fault, babies. Never. It was just an accident." she soothed, grooming them until the sobs had subsided.
But then... Then... She had to ask.
"Did it come?" she whispered, fearing the answer.
"I don't know, Mama. We couldn't see a lot from the shelter, and Whimsy was staring at something, but... But I don't know. I didn't see it but he was so afraid." Leafpaw replied, burying his face in her shoulder.
Lester could say nothing, just nuzzled them, and she wondered if Whimsypaw had seen something. If that monster was real, not just a vision of somethin to come... She knew it was coming. But she didn't want it to come now. Not yet. Not... Not for a long time. There was no way to tell from the kits' description, though, and she didn't want to push it. She soothed them and kept her fears to herself, and kept them close.
"Mama... Mama, is that monster real?" Chickpaw whispered, looking up at her.
"I don't know, baby. I don't know." Lester answered, licking his ears, wishing she could answer him. Or at least know enough to firmly lie.
Chickpaw burrowed against her and she kept them close, swallowing hard, watching over them as the others eventually returned, watching them until she couldn't keep her head up any longer.
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Lester, Leafpaw, and Chickpaw have been struck with heavy grief.
7/23/2026-8/9/2026
*Song used is an adjusted version of the tradition song Lyke Wake Dirge
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