#1 HyukBin Drabble
Hongbin stares blankly at his white walls, trying to put all the pieces that scatter in place. He gazes on the wine glass which still stained in purple red because he keeps using it to torn away the pain. Suddenly, the strained of his brunette falls gracefully on his forehead, forcing Hongbin to fix his hair that now feels so dry under his touch. Hyuk used to brush it whenever his hair starts to get messy even if he was the one who ruined his perfect hairstyle at night. But now he's alone in his chamber, drinking the feeling that now pierced his heart with only regret remains.
His mind travels back to May, when the entire lovey dovey thing happened for the first time. How he felt less lonely on Saturday night because Hyuk always asked him to sleep over, saying that Hongbin should stop feeling too lonely and that he needed someone to have sex with. Hongbin used to laugh over that, he would say you're such a jerk to Hyuk then they would end up making the bed sheet messy. They would steal kisses from each other, while telling each other how amazing the night was. But that was the past, and even if Hongbin loves to keep picturing all of it inside his head, he can’t bear the pain. Everything still hurts as much as the first time he found out things would never work the way he wanted it to be.
The thing is Hyuk always able to paint Hongbin new, with red shade or sometimes rosy pink; he's always able to erase the blue. Something that Hongbin has always been searching for. But Hyuk never settles, he's always gone even after an emotional night, even after they danced through the night under the dim light, even after everything they’ve been through. Once, Hongbin found Hyuk kissing a blonde girl in the club; that happened even after he told Hongbin how precious he is. It's always been so easy for Hyuk, but not for Hongbin. He'll never get used to, and it’s not okay to be tossed around like that.
Even if Hongbin always feels like shit, he still has dignity and he knows for sure he's too precious to be tasted only when Hyuk gets bored. And just now Hongbin realized even if Hyuk could rid the blue, he would only leave bruised with pretty purple on his heart.
What worse is Hongbin already gave so much to the latter, he never once handed his heart easily like that, but Hyuk is an exception and he hates that fact so much. Hyuk’s words mean nothing anymore, and even after hyuk begged him to stay, Hongbin still feels like everything will never change, Hyuk will never stay. Even after all the sweet words, Hongbin still doesn't let hyuk touch him again. He's too delicate and heartbroken. And Hyuk never knew how to handle him until everything was too late.
