I was crying alot last night...
My mom was comparing when to others, again....She said "instead of you guys to learn how to do hair or makeup up watch stupid stuff for 10 hours" she compared us to a girl saying that she could already make her hair. She kept on comparing and comparing while I just stood there...When she finally left I just started to cry uncontrollably and silently...she also made my little sister cry too...She thinks she can say this stuff without hurting us. She literally asked me and my siblings before if she was a good mom...I'm just going to say it at this point, a good mom wouldn't compare, judge, mock, fat shame, make fun of her own child. She's doing everything a good mom shouldn't. She even made my sister cry last year on her birthday and she laughed about it like she thought she was actually funny but she's not. She makes fun of my weight. Which is a reason why I'm always self conscious about my body... She mocks the way I walk or stand she says that I always stand sideways and Proceeds to mock me. Does she not know that way she does hurt me or the rest of my siblings...? I don't even know if I want any contact with her when I finally get out of this stupid place...
I've been crying...really crying...I just want comfort...