Crazy how nobody sees how i bite my nails and skin until i bl33d, how i pick my scabs, how i pick my skin, how i pick my scalp (with some hair), how i always fidget, how i zone out, how i isolate myself, how i never socialize unless i have to (and until then i give short answers), how i always stutter, how i stumble on words, how i always take everything seriously, how i cry when im the slightest bit of upset, how i struggle with hygiene, how i always snap at stuff that offends me, how i cut off people who do smth bad to me or someone i know, how i use music, drawing, games and videos as escapism, how i barely get sleep or get too much sleep, how i sleep too late or not sleep at all, how i cling to people i love like a lost dog, how i am so walked over by others just because i want them to love me, how i am always paranoid someone or something wants to hurt me, how i always cry when i hear someone arguing, how i always cry when someone is drunk, how i always cry when i am under pressure and/or when i have no control over something and i want to have it or when i am losing control over something, how i hate pictures of me being taken, how i always change my clothes somewhere else and not with everybody else after PE, how i always have earphones/headphones on, how i always sleep at school, how i always have to be chosen by the teacher to go in a group because no other kid chooses me, how i get attached to anyone who gives me the most bare attention, how i went from a straight A student to almost failing a subject, to struggling to barely open my notebook and study, how i always wear baggy clothes to hide my body, how i struggle cleaning my room even keeping it somewhat tidy, how i get so jealous seeing kids with both loving parents or a loving dad
