#i hate...everything

[emgay]

okay i know im being so dramatic and none of this in itself is a big deal but ive been feeling very bad lately and fragile and today was awful at work like really shitty i went to dunkin on my break and just screamed in my car the whole way there and just felt fucking awful all day and i come home and im locked out of the apartment for 20 mins bc cris is asleep so im thinking im going to be locked out all night and im just sitting on the door step crying he finally wakes up and lets me in and i shower and go to get us mcdonalds and the wait is super long (not a big deal i kno how it is) but i get to the payment window and they dont have any salads so all im getting is fries and i get the food and they dont put ketchup in the bag so i have to stop at walgreens to get ketchup in my house shorts and a sweatshirt and a guy asks me for money when im leaving which makes me feel awful and then i get home and drop my fries on the ground. the end i hate my life. 

[amidalis]

STILL STAR CROSSED IS IN THE SATURDAY SLOT OF DOOM.

[coolasamackerel]

my insurance wouldn't approve me to get my entyvio infusions at the hospital where my doctor works, so i gave them the name of an independent infusion center, and they approved it. then my doctor messages me and is like "why is a different center calling us for details about your infusions?" and i was like "cigna said the hospital's center is not approved, which i know is not true because i've had infusions at the hospital before, but i figured this whole process would be faster if i just agreed and went to a different center" and my doc was like "well we got an approval for the hospital's infusion center yesterday. do you want us to reject that approval so you can go to the other center?" and i was like "NO i'll do the infusion at the hospital if that's approved! i'll go anywhere! whatever is already approved, i'm there, let's do it!" and then she stopped responding so now i don't know what's going on

i wanted to call the center to schedule my infusion today, but now i don't know where the approval is for - the independent infusion center or the hospital's infusion center. and i don't want to call one of these places and try to schedule an infusion and set off a chain of events where i ended up calling the wrong place, and then they're like "oh you want your infusion here? great! we'll cancel the approval at the other place and start the approval process here! please hold for five to fifty business days while we do that!"

i don't care where i go! i really do not care!! someone just tell me where to go, and i'll go there!

the crux of the issues is nothing ever gets done if i don't call to get it done, but i don't know who to call because i don't wanna fuck things up by calling the wrong place, and it's SO FRUSTRATING AND STUPID

[doebt]

i miss my.good medicine im for real teetering on the edge of a breakdown for NO REASON ..AND ive been trying tk sleep for an hour and im so dead tired but The Mental Illness is keeping me awake...I am so upset

[thepainlessmoustache]

I'm really upset rn. I'm just...not in a good place. People are expecting so fucking much of me rn and I keep beating myself up for not doing more!! Because people keep getting pissed off that I'm not doing more!!!

...anyway I'm gonna be off and on for the next week. I didn't get the ending I wanted on that angst thing so hopefully I can finish by the time I get back

[morphogenetic]

i only have 4 paths left fml

[taggerbug]

sometimes i think medicolegal entomology might be a risky career health-wise but then i see vulture culture blogs on tumblr dot hell with people handling roadkill with their bare hands and putting skinned animals in their closed car trunks unbagged