#i just feel so...empty

[izzythehutt]

One of the great lies of modern life, the bill of goods they’ve tried to sell to us, is that our lives are fundamentally about ourselves. Self-actualization, “finding ourselves”, discovering what’s best for you, the language of “self-care”--none of these things have ever given me happiness or freedom. I know in my heart of hearts that me looking inward and focusing on life in terms of what I want (or think I want) will not give me peace.

Repeat after me: your life is not about you. Spiritual and psychological contentment can only be found in a life spent in pursuit of that which is outside of oneself. 

Let 2020 be the year I give of myself, completely and wholly. 

[dreamingoffairys]

*sighs* I don’t know why, but I’m suddenly wondering what I’m even doing with my life. I’ve been sitting here at my computer for an hour literally doing nothing. Normally when I procrastinate from things I at least like design outfits or make characters or plot AUs or SOMETHING but literally all I’ve done is refresh my dash over and over and there’s like nothing interesting there right now...

I just feel so...useless? Which is weird, because I’ve been trying to work on my original novel and I actually got a lot done today and yet I feel like if I stop now I’ll never be inspired for it again and yet another good original idea is lost...

I’m sorry for ranting this, everyone in my Skype chat is offline right now and I’m wallowing in my own existential crisis...