I think this blog is going to become a mainly fanart focused blog (I’ll still be reblogging way too much unrelated stuff though, sorry not sorry)
I’ll still draw my original stuff of course, I’m not stopping or anything, but most will probably be for school and my portfolio, which I am choosing to keep separate
I’m not going to delete any of my original works I’ve already posted, just going to stop going forward from here
SO FANART WOOAH, I like drawing fanart anyway and I don’t draw enough of it
Honorary fanart doodle so that when I pin this it isn’t just a text post hahahhhaba ok bye now
Part two of ‘I didn’t watch this all the way through at the time so everyone gets to hear my thoughts way too late’ - episode 2 version, wherein I discuss one clip in far too much detail. What can I say? I’m a wordy person so this is wordy.
The first thing that hits in this episode is the face Nora still keeps wearing. We saw how intrinsic this is to her in episode one and we even saw some little lies (or presumed lies - eg that their mother made a cake or cooked dinner etc) but this is such a full-on revising of what happened. Nora has been kicked out of the group by the others, but she tells Kiki that she was with them. I don’t know if she’s trying to protect Kiki (from worry about how Nora is doing) or Zoe (who is still an integral part of that group and who Kiki might get annoyed at) or herself (from pity if people know she’s been sidelined) or all three, but it’s quite alarming to see just how easy it is for her to lie like this. It’s second nature to her to hide and to lie so we get a situation where on the one hand she’s desperate for connection and belonging and on the other, she tries to do that by masking everything and making things seem perfect when they’re not, which is not a great strategy in the long term. People will be put off if they know how ‘fake’ you’re being once they see the ‘truth’. In hindsight, this may have been part of the issue with Constantin and why he reacted so brutally. It doesn’t excuse him, but can maybe explain why he feels so betrayed.
One nice thing, though, is I don’t think Kiki really is fooled by any of this. Her manner when she gives Nora the bracelet is so protective, and she wants to keep her ‘safe’ - they have a really nice bond, and the whole thing with the sisters is so interesting and well done. The various ways they’ve all formed in reaction to their mother and their homelife are so fascinating. Zoe basically becoming the spoiled little kid, demanding everything and trying to live a life as free as she can. Nora stepping into a caregiver role, hiding and obfuscating to avoid being seen. Kiki being the genuine older sister, realising she can’t do much more for their mother and stepping away but feeling some guilt about what she’s leaving the others to deal with and trying to parent them as well.
The thing with Nora in this second clip that stands out to start with is that she doesn’t seem happy and content in her own skin. She’s constantly worried about her mother and it is clearly taking a toll on her (and on her relationship with her mother but that’s another story). And I know the roof is supposed to be a happy place for her and I can understand why somewhere like that would feel free for her (open, high above the crap of her life, able to get a ‘big picture’ on things) and in some ways, the fact that it in itself isn’t ‘perfect’ is probably part of the appeal for her - it can be imperfect, run down, a little worn around the edges and yet somewhere she wants to be and maybe she can have that too. I personally wouldn’t find it all that appealing but that may have more to do with my fear of heights than anything intrinsically wrong with the roof itself! I do want to know where they get all the stickers. Is it a German thing? Am I missing out on free stickers by living in the wrong country?
I know literally everyone has talked about how Constantin is terrible in the running clip, but honestly it’s worth saying again - he’s terrible. I do still feel like there’s far too much overkill on how shitty this group of people is. We get the point already! Constantin has issues and his friends support him at Nora’s expense. We do get more of Nora’s easy lying which really should come back to bite her. But the problem I have here is that because Constantin is so shitty (and he cheated too, the hypocrite!) there’s no invitation from the text to recognise that Nora’s lying is a problem. That may be a deliberate choice (I haven’t seen where some of this stuff is going) but it feels a bit off for me. I shouldn’t be feeling that Nora is in the right for bald-face lying about what happened. I guess, if I’m being charitable, it allows for some reasons for Constantin and his mates to have reason to keep Nora pushed out and alienated (they know for a fact that she lied now and I can see that feeding into their feelings about her and what happened) but I wish it wasn’t framed in a way that made it seem like she’s done a good thing.
Annnnd now we get more of their whining about the lack of ability to have Abi parties. It’s getting really old. Their Abi isn’t for ages, they have time and there are other ways to raise money than parties. I’m already so bored of their entitled lack of imagination. Sorry for those who like that other squad; I’m just already heartily fed up with them. Thank goodness for Ava and her actual sense and thinking outside the box. I’m heartily in favour of the others just getting out and leaving the actually creative people to make it work, particularly when they mock her for actually trying to salvage the situation. The fact that we find out later that they’ve been bullying Ava makes this all that much worse tbh. That’s clearly still the behaviour that’s going on here and it must be quite painful for her (sidenote - I really want her season; I hope it can happen!)
I do really love the very awkward ‘getting to know you’ conversation at the start of their planning meeting on Friday. I think these sorts of very awkward interactions are so real and true and yet we’re not often allowed to see them and I like that Druck lets them be there. Also, this ‘parking lot rave’ is so ... bleh. It’s such a petty move to try to drink away all the money just so someone else can’t use it for the benefit of the whole group (presumably because this is Ava who they have taken a real stance against - and Nora, who is their newest victim). Again, I know there’s a purpose here and we’re supposed to see this group as being really insular and self obsessed and it does reflect a certain segment of society, but it all really does feel quite heavy handed. Still. At least this time, we’re explicitly told that they are assholes, and how they’d been treating Ava was awful, and that it’s shitty that they’re being so self-obsessed and ignoring the wider year group. And then they get what they deserved when the money was taken, and we see the rise of our lovely new group. So overall, I like how this clip goes.
me during the meeting with my teachers about my progress: yeah… i’m generally not a scared person. so experimenting is mostly just fun times for me!
them: oh interesting, so you don’t feel afraid a lot of the time?
me: no, i mean i am afraid of stuff, but i don’t think it’s in my nature
me: *gets home and starts crying about said meeting*
What I like about how to get away with murder is that I can't say I genuinely like any of the character, like they all do stuff I don't agree with, and I think that's very important in a show, because that's how people are. You never are going to agree with everything anyone does, and this show reflects that, but at the same time almost all the characters are very likable, in some aspect. Showing both sides of the characters is important, not only to make them more human, but to decrease your bias towards any one character.
