#i scream.

[schmakin]

argyle got a netflix icon. let’s gooooooo baby!!

[rkainine]

HEADCANON.

gotta write something coherent about this at some point but

Cain’s behaviour on the surface is tailored not only to control the situation and its people, but also to cover up everything’s that raging on the deeper level.  At the very core, he is afraid that his struggle with emotions and any attempt at expressing himself would ultimately harm and drive people away, which then results in him being unable to protect them.  This is the part he doesn’t consciously know prior to full deviation, actively fighting his own self-awareness.

As such, when it comes to androids, instead of trying to put it all into words, Cain would make use of their natural ability to share memories / their inner workings once he has come to trust them enough to open up.  He won’t talk about his turmoil.  He will show them. 

Which in itself is quite ironic.  He has much more instinctual care for humans than fellow androids because his perception of the man / machine dilemma is still very much based on the idea that androids were made to serve man.  It is something that follows him even into true deviancy later because of how ingrained it is into him, although it’ll be less about android vs human and more just himself vs everyone else.  

Oh, he’s prideful alright.  Still thinks himself all sorts of superior.  But that is precisely why he is so self-sacrificing.  He has better chances of success, and if he does fail at least the other is safe.

[fol-de-lol]

so I finally put my Johnsquared playlist together, and I am in love with it. tl;dr, just listen to “The Devil’s Plaything” it is amazing.

I just want you to look at that gif while listening to the first song of the list, ok? THANKS.

Strange and Beautiful (I’ll Put a Spell On You) by Aqualung

I’ve been watching your world from afar I’ve been trying to be where you are and I’ve been secretly falling apart unseen

For Childermass, because he is a creep.

Read Your Book by Sóley

I swim too far, fly too high I forgot to say goodbye I read your book with my eye it was fun, but still I cry I throw it out, in your head keep it there, while you're sad

For the boys, because we all know they belong in a library together.

After the Flood Only Love Remains by Arborea

I see your face and nothing has changed Eyes like the sun smiling with grace Out in the streets your courage remains Breaking your hands to save this place After the flood only love remains After the storms have blown away After the tears only love will reign After the flood only love remains

I am way too emotionally involved here.

Kingdom of the Shades by In Gowan Ring

Lay with me in swoon of elaborate feather Calm and sweet, swim within this dream Without ink without paper Would you set out to taper A song that never was sung With words that were not spoken On lines that have not hung The signs that leave no token Play with me in fields of nebulous cover Strong and swift, swim within this stream

I... think... I... Let’s move on. Oh fuck the next one is my favorite.

My Love Won’t Fade by Spiritual Front

Your scent fills my every breath the end of every night leads me in the light of your mouth could you really love another man after me?

A fatal attraction and an infected wound bind me to you no distance calms the instinct to want you above all else my gaze falls on you I’ll never see the light in your eyes I’ll never be close to the splendor of your sex could you really love another girl after me?

Immaculate destruction, make me a man just for one day immaculate destruction teach how to crawl and crave … and crave But my love won’t fade forever and always inside me my love won’t fade for you

I love this band and I love this song and this is absolutely the chapter I started writing yesterday.

The Devil’s Plaything - Backword

And he came to me on a Northern wind And he flooded my mind in a river of light And he wrapped my body in a breath of fire Then he hid my soul in a cloak of night Like a devil's plaything And he spoke to me in a language lost And he turned my head with sweet seduction And he filled my body with flames of ice Then he touched my soul and then he gave it back Like a devil's plaything As in a ruin where violets grow In moss covered fields On cold marble stone And love sometimes steals into a heart

This. This is the song. It’s long, listen to all the lyrics it kills me. I only discovered it today and I wanted to share this with the world so much that I finished EVERYTHING so I could share it with you all because holy fuck. It’s beautiful and it’s about things I love. But do you all see the Raven King here? Childermass? Childermass’ HEART.

The Pull of You - The National

Something's leaving me behind It's just a feeling in my mind What was is it you always said? We're connected by a thread If we ever get far apart I'll still feel the pull of you

Because I am writing my very long fic that I named after this song. Look I posted two new chapters just so I could post my playlist and start writing the interesting things soon. (heyyy don’t get your hopes up re: the fic, my heart isn’t in it yet. well, maybe some parts of chapter 5.)

[soulspunk]

[noir-vamp]

love this fool. that’s not an opinion. it’s an order.

[tenthtempest]

despite  feeling  like  absolute  shit  today  i  managed  to  book  my  doctors  appointment  for  two  weeks  from  now;  so  that’s  a  thing.

[azalea-blooming]

for the last time: an unreliable narrator is lying to you. you are not being conveyed crucial, plot-important information purposefully or not because the narrator is not telling you.

an unreliable narrator is not a character making subjective observations based off their own lived experience and what they know of the people around them. that’s just a character. that’s just a character. you’re writing a regular ass character.

if they’re wrong but they’re honestly relating to you everything they know, they’re not unreliable, because their actions, motivations for said acions, and how they affect the plot are not being obscured from you.