#i'm so devastated

[abla-soso]

I really have no words anymore.

[pearsandrust]

the ultimate price of anaxa's achievements is to be forgotten. in this essay late-night ramble i will

every one of anaxa's character stories ends with an indication that said story will be forgotten. for his first story, he snaps out of a flashback. his second (an experiment log) mentions that the original has already been destroyed. the third is an improvised speech -- never recorded, never practiced -- and the fourth story literally states that it is "One of the echoes in Anaxa's memories after the Grove had fallen, which vanished because nobody discovered it".

over and over again they tell us that there will be no record of his achievements, nobody to remember him when he's dead. and the heartbreaking part is that anaxa can come to terms with sacrificing his body, but he can't come to terms with sacrificing his memories. because anaxa desperately wants to be remembered. in as i've written, it's mentioned that he's able to laugh off his failures because his achievements will grant him a legacy that lasts for generations. and look at his experiment logs -- how organized they are, how diligently he must keep them, all so that his efforts are preserved. and, of course, why else would he insist on being called anaxagoras? to shorten a name is to forget something, and he can never risk that. because memories are all he has; having lost his family and sacrificed his physical form, what else is there?

but the thing is, anaxa has to be forgotten to succeed. in his last character story, he says this:

Yet, I have not lost enough… In comparison to what I pursue, I have not lost enough to fulfill the law of equivalent exchange.

so he knows he still has to lose something else. and later in the same story:

My future students, if you see these words, it proves that my endeavor has failed at the final step.

"if you see these words, I have failed." and in the context of his destroyed experimental logs, his interrupted flashback, his improvised speeches, we understand that the final price anaxa must pay is his legacy. the law of equivalent exchange is claiming the one thing he has worked towards all this time.

anaxa knows he's arrogant. but i'd like to think it's a desperate, tragic sort of arrogance, like the flare of a fire as it finds its last piece of kindling. please look at me. please remember me before it's too late.

[alt-ernativewonderland]

Accepting Being Dead 🎶

Blake Neely & Murat Selçuk from the Dead Boy Detectives season one soundtrack 💜

[ultravioletdisguise]

Hey man what the fuck

[cupcakewebkinz]

So I found out I was playing a ripoff of the original Camp Witchwood and when I went to find the original it was just- gone?? I found several other reboots as well but- the original is gone?? Does anyone know what happened??

[ruumishuoneet]

Miiposting 🧎‍♂️

[wildest-dreams-at-midnight]

Taylor Swift songs I've been thinking about given recent events

Bigger than the whole sky Guilty as sin Breathe Dancing with our hands tied Ivy Gold rush Right where you left me But Infold I love him I hate it here

[dawnofus]

wooyoung 🤏🏼