Jan 20, 2022
If I'm having a mental breakdown on Tumblr no I'm not and you don't see anything 💖
#I'm sorry I'm trying not to stress#like things are fine i can go to work#but the stress is lingering abd I'm trying to let boyf play vidya so tumblr takes the brunt of my anxiety#i- ugh#fuck#like....i can't just seem to find a job i like#and i know maybe i should be more forgiving and suck it up and stick it out but...#/sighs#the work is easy enough that i can do it on instinct#so if I'm having a bad mental health day then i can weather through it mostly okay#and the hours are good but...#but I'm stressing out about going full time and it really makes me sick to my stomach having to hear stuff about my sister#and i don't even know how the fuck i could bring it up to hr#like what. i supposed to say???#hey ever since i started people have been giving me flak bc my sis fucked around here and it's making me miserable fix it#what are they gonna do? reprimand half the factory? just so everyone can fucking hate me?#GOD#boyf and i are discussing options#well we were he's playing Vidya#but anyways we're considering going back to an old factory we worked at before#that place was hell but there's a decent chance we could go full time through the front door#if they rehire us that is#if i can stick it out just until the end of the year i could save some fat fucking stacks and transition slowly out of factory work#jobs wouldn't be so hard if my car HADN'T OF FUCKING BROKE DOWN ON ME AGAIN#i just....fuck#i don't WANT to work 60 hours a week again#the momey is so good but it's so miserable#but it's like....i need money#i have to get a new car and boyf's truck is on its last legs#we've been trying so hard to save for a new place but shit just keeps happening!!!!!!
