#iamashamedofmyself

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[kaizay]

Does anyone have some spare ‘will to live’? or ‘motivation’, maybe ‘productivity’??? I’ll take what I can get.

[sydneyroach]

1-16-15, 10:27 PM

I'm actually really upset that I can't be the person I want so badly to be. As much as I preach to be optimistic and happy about life, love the people around you and be grateful for everything, I can't even slightly achieve that. I am the most hypocritical, ungrateful, dramatic person who conforms exactly to the upper middle class OC teen stereotype. I fail to see the big picture. I constantly have to remind myself that life could be 100 times worse than I have it, and yet I don't live with that ideology. I don't understand how blessed I am with all that I have. My littlest problems that are so insignificant become, to me, the most horrific situations imaginable. I hate it. I hate being so small compared to the things happening around the world. I hate the bubble I live in. I hate not truly understanding what it's like to struggle with anything in life. I don't want to be able to get practically everything I want. I want to learn what it's like to work for something, to actually have to make sacrifices that mean something more than missing hanging out with my friends or not getting a lot of gifts for Christmas. I hate living with this idea that everyone lives frugally with so much to spare. I need God to lead me somewhere in some scenario where I can truly appreciate my life and understand hardship. As much as it sounds like I'm asking for suffering, for having less than I have rather than feeling gratitude for it, I need a reality check right now.

[chibicrow]

Things Not to Do When You Haven't Watched Vanguard for Three Weeks

#329823493824: Listen to three Vanguard songs in less than 12 hours of each other and expect not to keel over from feels.

[martyrized]

The advantage of eating movie theater popcorn is that two days later it tastes the same!