pain within me
Almost day in and day out I am always in pain and I never know what it is from. I am sick of having this feeling all the time. I shouldnt be having this at all. I am struggling to stand infront of people with out having to make everything say or do look fake. I am always putting a fake smile, look and everything else cause I can never really be who I am, I am too scared to even be my real self, people say that they are going through the same thing when really their not.
All I have ever heard was be your self or the fact that they are always there for me when really their not, I have no one and always will, they say they are able to help the best way they can when really they cant, so pretty much you are lying with out realizing about it and so when the damage is done you cant exactly help and stop for what has happened.
I am sick and tired of people saying that they are able to help or want to help when really all you have been saying no but yet they never listen to what you have said beside what your problems and so they actually think that they can help when really you actually cant help me for what is happening.