I don't understand why people get so hung over a person and get overly depressed. You're fucking alive. And you probably have food, shelter, and clothes. If you posted how heartbroken you are all over social media, you obviously had access to internet. So you definitely live in a semi-industrialized part of the world. There's SO MUCH MORE TO FUCKING LIFE than some insignificant person that did not appreciate your strengths and weaknesses. Go out, have fun! Life is too precious to be wasted on people who don't deserve your awesomeness. Half of these people are KIDS. You will find your love, but for now enjoy every single day and be thankful for everything you have. Because if you were able to read this you probably have it way better than millions of people. You are not getting any younger and your body is deteriorating every day, truth sucks. So enjoy life and stop being so dependent!