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[iamshajeeda]

#farrago_of_feelings WHO AM I? I often get perplexed Buy my own personality That who am I? Am I a cherubic dewdrop On a daffodil, shining In The Sun Or A virago storm Which can challenge the foundations Of strongest standing mountains Or a learned Sage who Wants to own fortunes Of wisdom and knowledge Or a free-spirited breeze Which can soothe any soul which comes in its way Or a weakling who made tears and emotion her strength Or A caretaker and a protective spirit Who believes in giving And never ask for anything in return Or a clone of Sherlock Holmes Having ability forejudge and trust instincts Or A chunk of pure gold With no grit to handle swords of life Or a diamond in guise Of cold to defeat shyness Or I’m I like to fire For no one has the courage to reach fathoms of my soul Or am I all or nothing types Either where I can destroy myself For sake of love Or will leave for never to come back Or a Lethal combination Of deep mind, pure soul and golden heart Too nice to give someone    Sleepless nights  even upon first meeting Or a carefree brook knows well enough to make ways  A rule breaker who believes in deeper meanings of life Or a cute farrago of feelings Which sways for 10000 times in a day Switching from one app to another Just to avoid people Or a nice person who just Wants to get nicely handled For she deserved to be loved Or a nice classy Bentley With a guarantee of 100 years Who knows it’s worth And can’t let anybody Walk with the dirty feets On grass of her heart Or am I a happy go lucky smile Running from ear to ear Spreading from me to people around me Or am I a carefree dreamer Who believes in daring to dream Or a believer who feels That she is born to fly Or am I a caged lion Of circus who roars on Conditions of others Suddenly my brain and heart In synchronisation asked me to shut and said I chose to become whom I am I’m a passionate soul who knows no boundary to my fantasies I am an upbringing by my parents, teachers and friends I’m not a face but personality I am Shajeeda Ahmed For I’m not a name but an Attitude #IamShajeeda (at St. Mary's Garrison Church, Gandhi Nagar, Jammu)

[iamshajeeda]

Relationships have become more of trends these days. People create room for another person before leaving a relationship. Love is something which grows with each passing day. Why we fall apart? It was beautiful winter night When you confessed your love for me You said I'm different Hardworking, always hopeful Optimistic and full of life I liked your simplicity and freedom You gave me You were very expressive You showered love on me Like an elephant on his master With his trunk full of water Those were so happy days It always seemed as if it was for forever I guess I was wrong I go bonkers for why we fell apart I found my own answers We fall apart because our status Changed to YOU and I Communications vanished Expression vanished We watched in silence Doing nothing about it Priorities changed We were falling apart each day Emotions dried up Suddenly distance between us Seemed like distance light years apart Finally one day, I left Because you never asked me to stay But I wonder why we fall apart Because we stopped communicating Was my answer!!!!! #IamShajeeda (at St. Mary's Garrison Church, Gandhi Nagar, Jammu)

[iamshajeeda]

#word_of_the_day #IGNOBLE #Shameful I don't shy about showing the world my darker side. That's not for the world to pity me or judge me. That's for me to accept the real me. That's for me to achieve perfection in my work. #IamShajeeda (at St. Mary's Garrison Church, Gandhi Nagar, Jammu)

[iamshajeeda]

#word_of_the_day #writetoexpress #motivation A TALE FROM AFRICA I was so pure as 24-carat gold I lacked grit, I was so soft That life chew right through me LOST, broken, bruised and fractured It left me On my way, I met a soldier Injured and damaged in battleground And recited a tale from Africa He started with a Gazelle, Every morning who wakes up and knows To run faster than fastest lion He talked about a lion Every morning who knows it must outrun Slowest Gazelle for survival Moral of the story is Even if you are a Lion or Gazelle Or Human You are given set of problems to face So that you can survive Darkest of phase of your life So if sun comes, You should better be running Coz, it's a chance for you start fresh #iamshajeeda #originally_written_on_mirakee_app (at St. Mary's Garrison Church, Gandhi Nagar, Jammu)

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#childhood_of_fauji_kids #beautiful_childhood_of_90s #missing_those_lovely_days #PART_ONE_OF_CHILDHOOD_SERIES WHEN I MET MY FATHER I know a short-heighted man With a large heart Which beats for me only As if he has nobody else in his life A man with unbreakable trust on God A man of steel with a pulpy heart Born somewhere in November In cold and chilly weather To a soldier and his beautiful wife The soldier left me When I was unicellular in my mother's womb And came when I was born I made my father proud For he needed a daughter Posted in Jammu, a letter reached him Saying 'you are a father now' The whole unit danced with him His leave was sanctioned Not for long But he knew I was waiting for him With curiosity and high spirits He reached home And found me I was celebrating my sixth day I was small, fragile little girl So weak that I could not open my eyes I was soft as cotton Fair as snow white Cute, most beautiful creation by nature And parents As he took me He took me far away from chaos Where me and him spent quality time Sitting silently, he had emence energy To watch me whole day I too was feeling warm with him In our silence I complained He apologised For not being there But I was in no mood to forgive Because I missed him He kissed me and shared me With his better half Because his family was complete He thanked us both My peace was mutilated when my brother Was born😆😆😆😆😆😆 #IamShajeeda #proud_to_be_a_daughter_of_Soldier (at St. Mary's Garrison Church, Gandhi Nagar, Jammu)

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#writetoexpress #word_of_the_day #Quandary #Meeting_with_God THE BLIND DATE One day God fixed a blind date for me The excited me planned for it Bought a pale pink dress and matching Heels and earrings Got an appointment with a parlour D-day arrived I was waiting for my date In desperation, eagerness With curiosity and little hesitation I was a shadow approaching I was feeling butterflies in me But what I saw was unexpected Stood there in QUANDARY And was staring at a little girl A girl who had elegance in her As she stood there She was wearing confidence and generosity As her garments Her eyes were like fire Lips like beautiful rose petals A brain sharp then a warriors sword A mind calm and still like water in a pool I noticed fragility in her body But still, her shoulders were toughened With responsibilities She was barefoot Still, the mother comforted her Because of her kind heart And a soul which is unbreakable My instincts and God smiled at me They said it was a meeting between YOU and little YOU That you which I had CREATED and you have BECOME Bitter, cold, arrogant and exaggeration Looking at this, tears rolled down my eyes The little me embraced me, I was ashamed For what I have become. I wiped my lip colour, my kajal God and little Shajeeda mocked at me I embraced both of them For my QUANDARY in life was erased For I realised my vision My ultimate aim of being born as a human I was born human So that I can spread love I can spread knowledge I can spread truth and wisdom I can spread right But in return, I followed wrong I was born in valley of pain So that I can turn my pain into glory I was born to fulfill bigger goals But I lost my way in conflicts of What my eyes sees What my heart wants But now, when I know what I want I shall never get distracted With small waves of problems #IamShajeeda ©IamShajeeda (at Garrison Church, Gandhi Nagar, Jammu)