#ice hard

[sandythereadingcafe]

REVIEW:

ICE HARD (New York Nighthawks #2) by Tracy Goodwin at The Reading Cafe:

‘The fast paced premise is engaging and captivating; the characters are numerous, energetic and flirty’

http://www.thereadingcafe.com/ice-hard-new-york-nighthawks-2-by-tracy-goodwin-a-review/

[valkerymillenia]

Poetry -Ice Hard-

A big fake smile

Hanging on my face.

I just found my true self.

I’m so apathetic,

So ice cold,

And I’ll never melt.

  I smile and laugh,

Every single day.

But happiness is relative

And sadness won’t leave a stain...

I’ve frozen my heart,

Became rock hard,

And now I don’t care

Of being happy or sad,

Of dying or living.

That’s why I’m so brave,

So relaxed and so obsessive.

‘Cause if I die, it’s ok,

If I live I’ll survive,

If I’m miserable I won’t care,

And if I’m happy I won’t notice.

  I’ve gotten used to pain,

I’ve been through too much.

Now I’m ice hard,

And don’t care of my heart.

I feel happy through others,

I feel pain through my loved ones.

But I never think I’m that bad,

I never see the truth,

I don’t believe in my own happiness...

But fight...

For life and dreams,

For freedom and love,

But if I fail I won’t care

If I succeed I’ll just live.

  I’m so ice hard,

I only feel through others.

I smile,

I’m optimistic,

But not for me...

I’m never that bad,

I’m never hurt enough,

Sometimes it’s good,

Sometimes it’s rough.

  So when you see my smile,

So big and fake,

Hear my words and know

That I no longer feel them through.

If you see my wounds,

And my tears spilling by,

Know that I don’t care

And I will not try to die.

‘Cause I’m so icy

And so hard...

But my arms are warm to all

And my laughter isn’t small,

Only real for those I love,

And sarcastic for myself.

(December 5th 2006)