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"I can go further (if I go wrong)" - my webcomic

It's about growing up autistic and trying and failing all the time

I'll try to post a small part every week. Please give me feedback if you want to say something, I'm very interested even if it's negative!

i'm posting it on comicfury.

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TRACEBACK

misadventures of a young programmer and her cute consciousness-copy AI chatbot in the not-so-distant future. about isolation and loneliness and being desperate and not killing yourself. an assortment of short form fiction

(that i'm not currently working on. it's pretty much abandoned)

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Table of contents:

Storyline:

the last enemy to destroy - short story collection

from rotten flesh - Guide7's backstory - part 1

from rotten flesh - Guide7's backstory - part 2

transit - comic - part 0

transit - 1

transit - 2

transit - 3

transit - 4

transit - 5

transit - 6

transit - 7

Parallel stories:

you can die any moment - xenia's backstory

xenia, on the topic of writing

xenia, on the topic of gaming

identity politics

transgender

antivirus

go outside

deadnaming

Concept art:

crossroads

HPC cluster

pickup point

quadcopter

reference sheet

reference: xenia's stages of life

portrait...?

xenia spinning around

character sketches

xenia's character introducton

ABOUT ME

My name's Meto4 or you can just call me Met, I'm nonbinary and my pronouns are they/them exxxxcccclusively (oh yeah it feels good to say). I'm 20 years old, I've been doing art since forever and comics since I was about 14.

I'm a software developer, so I have no education or work experience in art.

I'm autistic, diagnosed using ICD10 with F84.5. But if the circumstances were different I'd probably get 6A02.0 from ICD11. There's no meaning in me stating the specific diagnosis, I just like how there's a code for everything. I also have a bunch of other diagnoses but they're irrelevant. Most of my art is about the experience of neurodivergency in one way or another, though I can only speak for my specific form of my specific disorder, and since people are generally different from each other I might be the only one who has it!

English is my second language.

I'm mostly inspired by Jennifer Diane Reitz, ferry and tkmiz in, uhh, content-making. Though I'm in a lot of other fandoms too.

At work I usually use Python and C#, though I also know C++ on a basic level.

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I'm almost finished with the storyboard for my thing #mything it'll be approximately 900 frames long in total. kind of hard to measure if that's long or not because it's not quite an animatic (would have more frames for the same runtime) but not quite a traditional comic (would have less pages)...

I'm going to be polishing the script and closing plot holes later probably. drawing unrelated.

you can read the beginning here

or on comicfury I guess

or of course I can send anyone the entire storyboard if they ask nicely too.

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SVIRELKIN HOPED TO FORGIVE HIS WIFE THAT I WAS COMING OUT OF MY MISTAKE. AND IT STARTED WITH

SVIRELIKINA. HE CAME TO HIS DISSERTATION TO CANCEL THE NUCLEAR TWIN. HIS WIFE,

apparently, did not like IT, and she refused to help SVIRELIKIN. Then he demanded that she put

on a gas mask. It didn't help. Then he demanded that she take off her gas mask. It didn't help. Then he hit her

with a baton and asked to wait outside. AND MY WIFE LIKED IT. She walked past the tables and

approached SVIRELIKIN. He grabbed her hand and they fell to the floor together. HIS WIFE WAS IN PAIN.

SVIRELKIN APOLOGIZED. SHE DEMANDED TO HER WIFE THAT SVIRELKIN LEAVE HER AT A DEAD END.

SVIRELKIN WAS STUMPED TO THE POINT OF SUSPICION. AND IT WAS COMING AGAIN. They

WE KISSED. SVIRELKIN WAS SITTING IN A DEAD END WITHOUT FOOD - HIS WIFE DID NOT KNOW THAT SUCH A DEAD END.

Then he remembered THAT he DIDN'T HAVE TO ADORE HER WITH PLASTIC SURGERY. AND IT HURT. Without thinking,

SVIRELKIN CAME IN ON A MORNING WHEN NOTHING HAD STARTED. AND MY WIFE WAS IN PAIN. He's HER

HE MADE ME. AND IT CAME IN PAIN. AND IT CAME IN PAIN. SVIRELKIN ASKED HER TO LOOK AT IT,

I'VE NEVER DONE THAT, THOUGH. She LOOKED AT HIM AND WAS ANGRY WITH HIM HERSELF. SVIRELKIN BEGINS

MORE OF HER IS MORE CRAZY. MY WIFE WAKES UP, SEES HER FACE, SUSPECTS. "TO DRINK,"

THOUGHT MY WIFE. SVIRELKIN GOT HURT. In THE END, MY WIFE WAS IN PAIN. She

asked WHAT THE SAME SHIT WAS.

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I'm so fucking suicidal right now, anyway life update I have 690 pages of my comic (ICGF) sketched out which is a lot for me, before I never really went past ~200.

I decided to stop actually posting anything online until I have a good idea of the overall plot and what's going to happen and where and additional materials like references and 3d models of especially prominent locations. it's going to be about a lot of things, like freedom and disability and whatever else I can think of. since I put a lot of time into this whole universe growing up, I feel the pressure to make the story something pivotal, incorporating all my philosophical beliefs and scientific interests, but I'm trying to resist it. it's a small story about a specific thing and it doesn't need any of that. I'm afraid I'm going to tackle too much then execute my ideas poorly...

I want to go all hard-sci-fi as much as humanly possible over the magical system I made up and I want the layout of the places they're in to be consistent, but that requires a lot of planning.

anyway idk. I don't know if my artwork has any value, I believe anyone could draw like that if they tried. is it worth drawing anything? I'm doing it because I always wanted to draw a comic and I feel like I have something to say. I'm 20 years old, so I lived way past the age I thought I would've back when I was a kid. but maybe I should have died back then, since it wouldn't be painful. now I absolutely can't do it because I have too much hope, but I don't know if it's justified in my case. It's possible that I'm delusional and there's nothing more to it. Anyway, I'm not sure if it's worth it, but at least now I get to draw a webcomic, and I got to experience a lot of good things, too.