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[meto4]

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"I can go further (if I go wrong)" - my webcomic

It's about growing up abnormal, autism-coded, pathologizing and understanding of the world

I'll try to post a small part every week. Please give me feedback if you want to say something, I'm very interested even if it's negative!

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Table of contents:

behavior

fixation on self-image

conversation I

conversation II

if it's with you

how'd you get here I

how'd you get here II

day off - will finish after I'm done with the script for the entire thing

TRACEBACK

misadventures of a young programmer and her cute consciousness-copy AI chatbot in the not-so-distant future. about isolation and loneliness and being desperate and not killing yourself. an assortment of short form fiction

(that i'm not currently working on. it's pretty much abandoned)

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Table of contents:

Storyline:

the last enemy to destroy - short story collection

from rotten flesh - Guide7's backstory - part 1

from rotten flesh - Guide7's backstory - part 2

transit - comic - part 0

transit - 1

transit - 2

transit - 3

transit - 4

transit - 5

transit - 6

transit - 7

Parallel stories:

you can die any moment - xenia's backstory

xenia, on the topic of writing

xenia, on the topic of gaming

identity politics

transgender

antivirus

go outside

deadnaming

Concept art:

crossroads

HPC cluster

pickup point

quadcopter

reference sheet

reference: xenia's stages of life

portrait...?

xenia spinning around

character sketches

xenia's character introducton

ABOUT ME

My name's Meto4 or you can just call me Met, I'm nonbinary and my pronouns are they/them exxxxcccclusively (oh yeah it feels good to say). I'm 20 years old, I've been doing art since forever and comics since I was about 14.

I'm a software developer, so I have no education or work experience in art.

I'm autistic, diagnosed using ICD10 with F84.5. But if the circumstances were different I'd probably get 6A02.0 from ICD11. There's no meaning in me stating the specific diagnosis, I just like how there's a code for everything. I also have a bunch of other diagnoses but they're irrelevant. Most of my art is about the experience of neurodivergency in one way or another, though I can only speak for my specific form of my specific disorder, and since people are generally different from each other I might be the only one who has it!

English is my second language.

I'm mostly inspired by Jennifer Diane Reitz, ferry and tkmiz in, uhh, content-making. Though I'm in a lot of other fandoms too.

At work I usually use Python and C#, though I also know C++ on a basic level.

[meto4]

horrible realistic terezi pyrope

[lullabitess]

this'll sound goofy but attacks on the internet aren't going to end at "You can't access this website anymore cause we said so sawry!!"

it'll extend to other forms of media as well. TV, movies, games, books, music. name it, it'll be censored, taken down, or demonetized

here's one example:

do you want to find out how deltarune is going to end? i do too. but imagine if one day every game store started removing games for content they deem "obscene". then, well, there goes deltarune, and any chance of us seeing any of the next chapters!

that'll happen to every other game you enjoy, regardless of how innocent you think it is. it'll happen to all those horror games, platformers, visual novels, rpgs, open world games, mmos, literally all of that. once it's decided they don't fit certain perameters, boom! it's gone.

don't doompost! that's resignation. but please, please take the facts seriously. please call your reps to oppose the bad internet bills. you can use a script if you go to 5calls.com. please spread the word, and please speak out before the internet's destroyed for us all.

[princess-of-misfits]

a subway is a kind of long dragon 🚉

[nattousan]

ok so, I approached my local library with a proposal to donate a mural as a way to A: build portfolio/gain practical experience and B: give back to a beloved public institution. The director was very enthusiastic about it and i've been working on it since the beginning of March. Come with me as I endeavor to paint what is in all honesty an excessive amount of birds

I wanted the birds to look like they were actually in the space so first thing after doing the draft was to do a lighting study

after that I covered the walls in letters in lieu of a projector/vr headset bc i have neither of those :) Then i take a picture of the section of wall and superimpose the lineart over top of it so I can pencil in the lines

et voila

and that was a whole week on it's own so next comes the paintin' >:)

[nattousan]

and now, the birds

Birds 1 and 2/14: Red Winged Blackbird, Male and female, Agelaius phoeniceus

[nattousan]

Bird 3/14, American Robin, Turdus migratorius

[nattousan]

hoo boy, ok *out of breath*

GIVE IT UP FOR BIRD NUMBUH 5, THE CANADIAN GOOSE, Branta canadensis!!!!

this guy took me about 4 days to completely finish, all of those freakingk coverts were a bear to render

[nattousan]

speaking of obnoxious coverts:

bird 5/14, Bluejay, Cyanocitta cristata

the friggin stripes almost got me chat, i may not make it

[nattousan]

Madam....

[nattousan]

birds 6 and 7: American Goldfinch, Spinus tristis, male and female

pleasantly simple to paint! next is the flickerrrrr

[nattousan]

*melts into goo*

BIRD NUMBER 8, (yellow shafted) NORTHERN FLICKERRRRR, Colaptes auratus

genuinely made me start questioning my sanity around day 3, it's half the size the of the goose, WHY did it take me 4 days to finish??

nothing but pain and suffering, i'm sure hope the next bird will be much easier and with FAR less barring :)

[nattousan]

in other news, I am losing my mind hairline

[nattousan]

SHE'S DONE!!

Bird number 9: Red-tailed hawk, Buteo jamaicensis

my chains are broken i am FREE. although i did have a great deal of fun with this, the barring on the wings itself took me like four days and i am READY to move on

this was a week and a half of continuous work so please excuse me for getting a little emotional in the bg 🙏

[nattousan]

*does a little jig*

BIRD NUMBER 10!!! The Male Mallard Duck, Anas platyrhynchos

the male and female ones are gonna be posted separately bc they're taking a lot longer lol but yea! super happy i was able to capture the iridescent green of the head, i found metallic green and blue paint at a craft store that really made his head POP. it looks better in person i promise

ALSO!! As this is the 10th one, BIG announcement. The end is in sight!!!!! I plan to finish within the next 3 weeks and there will be a small dedication ceremony/ unveiling happening at the library to commemorate its completion on the 16th of May. If you live in the Western New York region and want to check it out for yourself shoot me a dm!

Also thank you everyone for your kind words and support throughout this whole process, it's been a genuine treat thinking there are potentially thousands of you out there cheering me on while I paint this 🥹

[nattousan]

aaaand another one bites the duck,

we're movin right along with bird numero 11!! The lady Mallard!! Anas platyrhyncos

the 16th is looming in the distance so i'm trying to get thru these as quickly as i can so i can have as much time for the GBH as possible. i still need to do the names next to all of them so i've got about a week and a half to finish everything which is GREAT because i have adhd and nothing gets my ass in gear like a fuckin deadline, let me tell you

[nattousan]

power couple that they are, here's bird number 12 and 13,

the Northern Cardinals, Cardinalis cardinalis

and NOW that they are complete, ITS GO TIME, in the next five days (library's closed for mother's day 😭😭) i need to have the GBH fully rendered, the names of the birds vectored, weeded, masked, applied to the wall, and then painted, plus additional cattails throughout. I may be able to get away with just getting the GBH done in time for the unveiling and then just have the names and cattails added later, but i'm gonna really try to get it all done in time. BUT, i have a plan. Part of why i take so long on these is because i really am just figuring it out as I do it lmao. there have been many a time where i am sitting on top of the ladder googling "how to paint birds" but I think if i take the time tomorro to do all that figuring out how to approach it beforehand, this will go a lot faster. I may also recruit some of my artist friends to help with the placing of the names... hrmm we'll see.

Anyways, shout out to the librarian who tracked down exactly the thing i needed so i could figure out where to place the highlights in my birds eyes, ur the real mvp

[nattousan]

thanks for the reminder, kid

[nattousan]

at long last, we've reached the end...

Bird number 14 out of 14,

The Great blue heron, Ardea herodius

thank you to everyone who reached out or got excited about this project, it genuinely gave me the fuel i needed to keep going. In total, the 480+ total hrs it took me to cover this wall pales in comparison to how long its expected to spend on there, hopefully imparting a sense of beauty and love for the natural world to the next generation and here's hoping i'm only getting started with these.

i'll see y'all soon :')

[atridesmediator]

BARB MENTIONED WALRUS CHARLIE AND IT KINDA STRUCK ME SO SO SO WE’RE DOING WALRUS CHARLIE NOW

[sludgebitch]

this thing contains the divine spark. it evolved from ancient ungulates like whales did

[electronicdwarf]

This thing is climate change incarnate.Stop personifying evil like it’s cute and cares about you

[sludgebitch]

this thing is my girlfriend and she lets me cum inside unprotected

[maddiesharafian]

A Blacksmith’s Dream

[landmineblogging]

[2026 Aid Post]

hi! maybe you know me or maybe you don't. i'm an aging disabled genderqueer who has been living on this site for ages. i've shat posts, written poems, made music & videos too. i also host a few tumblr communities like my book club.

i have been unable to work for a while & am currently surviving in a low income apartment with help from family support, weekly plasma donations, commission orders & pawning old items. i am in a tighter spot than ever now with little help from assisted living services so far.

if you have enjoyed anything on this blog & want to help me live:

my KOFI. this is the easiest way.

my venmo: FlowersForJean

my Bandcamp Albums, voted on by mutuals

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MUSIC I CAN MAKE FOR YOU:

theme songs for OCs

theme songs for DND sessions

theme songs for just about any story or idea you have

background/AFK/intro & outro music for streamers and youtubers

8-16 bit retro sounds for game projects

battle songs, lofi, from breakcore & triphop to classical & country

and literally everything in-between

CURRENT PRICES (REDUCED):

$30 for a 0-2 minute song

$60 for 2-3

$90 for 3-4

$120 for 4+

i got my start playing live instruments with my dad as a child, & have both self training & classic training influences under my binder i mean belt. i made the transition into digital production about 9 years ago, although i still live record as well & enjoy blending both mediums.

i have completed quite a few orders since then! there is no genre I consider off limits, but i will tell you if I have less experience with something in your request. for more questions, just DM me or send an ask. have a safe day.

[atridesmediator]

[atridesmediator]

insert funny the sabres of paradise joke (paul atreides if his ass was sent to 2-3 years dagestan instead of arrakis)

[atridesmediator]

also red 🦅

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[meto4]

you'd think that with me being hashtag nonbinary I'd draw yuri and yaoi in equal amounts. or with me being hashtag aroace irl you'd think I'd not draw any of that.

while I don't like putting that much emphasis on romantic relationships normally in general and I don't view lesbian and gay relationships as fundamentally different in real life, somehow I consistently lean into yuri rather than yaoi. I do not think I've ever drawn serious yaoi ship art even one time in my life.

it's attractive to me when a relationship is on the edge of being romantic but not explicitly stated to be so and it fumbles around because there are feelings that are more extreme than the average normal relationship, but for whatever reason it can't even be labeled as a relationship at all, and that's more of a yuri trope (though I might be wrong, to be honest, even while writing this I thought of several counterexamples).

well, I'm sure it's not exactly good lesbian representation (many reasons why), but it's, unintentionally, relatable to me.

why do I use the same yuri tropes constantly when writing relationships between my female characters? I don't know, force of habit, honestly. I might need to think about that.

***

I'd draw woke qpr pairings with nonbinary people too, but the only one I can think of is krusie from deltarune, and that's already a stretch...

[meto4]

[meto4]

I'm almost finished with the storyboard for my thing #mything it'll be approximately 900 frames long in total. kind of hard to measure if that's long or not because it's not quite an animatic (would have more frames for the same runtime) but not quite a traditional comic (would have less pages)...

I'm going to be polishing the script and closing plot holes later probably. drawing unrelated.

you can read the beginning here

or on comicfury I guess

or of course I can send anyone the entire storyboard if they ask nicely too.

***

SVIRELKIN HOPED TO FORGIVE HIS WIFE THAT I WAS COMING OUT OF MY MISTAKE. AND IT STARTED WITH

SVIRELIKINA. HE CAME TO HIS DISSERTATION TO CANCEL THE NUCLEAR TWIN. HIS WIFE,

apparently, did not like IT, and she refused to help SVIRELIKIN. Then he demanded that she put

on a gas mask. It didn't help. Then he demanded that she take off her gas mask. It didn't help. Then he hit her

with a baton and asked to wait outside. AND MY WIFE LIKED IT. She walked past the tables and

approached SVIRELIKIN. He grabbed her hand and they fell to the floor together. HIS WIFE WAS IN PAIN.

SVIRELKIN APOLOGIZED. SHE DEMANDED TO HER WIFE THAT SVIRELKIN LEAVE HER AT A DEAD END.

SVIRELKIN WAS STUMPED TO THE POINT OF SUSPICION. AND IT WAS COMING AGAIN. They

WE KISSED. SVIRELKIN WAS SITTING IN A DEAD END WITHOUT FOOD - HIS WIFE DID NOT KNOW THAT SUCH A DEAD END.

Then he remembered THAT he DIDN'T HAVE TO ADORE HER WITH PLASTIC SURGERY. AND IT HURT. Without thinking,

SVIRELKIN CAME IN ON A MORNING WHEN NOTHING HAD STARTED. AND MY WIFE WAS IN PAIN. He's HER

HE MADE ME. AND IT CAME IN PAIN. AND IT CAME IN PAIN. SVIRELKIN ASKED HER TO LOOK AT IT,

I'VE NEVER DONE THAT, THOUGH. She LOOKED AT HIM AND WAS ANGRY WITH HIM HERSELF. SVIRELKIN BEGINS

MORE OF HER IS MORE CRAZY. MY WIFE WAKES UP, SEES HER FACE, SUSPECTS. "TO DRINK,"

THOUGHT MY WIFE. SVIRELKIN GOT HURT. In THE END, MY WIFE WAS IN PAIN. She

asked WHAT THE SAME SHIT WAS.

[sebijy]

[atridesmediator]

poor sad vaggi on her first year in hell and her third.