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This requires so many minor details, IM DIEING-

Using a #0 brush hUrtS

WHY AM I PAINTING THIS

AGHHHH-

#rexx #rices random shit #BALDIMONNNNNNNN #IDFKKKKKK #IDK IF ITS GOOD OR BAD #IDFC THO

Recently (as in, over the past couple hours) I have been, not for the first time, questioning my gender.

The first time I really did this was back in May, after my sister came out as a trans girl. I've probably done it casually a few times since then. And now I'm doing it again.

The conclusion I've reached is the same one I've come to every time:

"Eh, I've got more important things to worry about."

This time, however, it's really frustrating me that that's the only conclusion I can come to.

Yes, I know that questioning one's gender is a long process, but I'm really damn impatient. I want to know now. So I kinda want help. Not for someone to tell me what I am (though label suggestions would be very much appreciated), just some advice on how to figure this out ASAP.

Details:

1. I am, to everyone, cisgender female. Nobody irl knows I do this questioning, because I haven't come to any real conclusions yet.

2. I am perfectly fine with people addressing me as a female, and I am fine with my female body. I like it for the most part, all I'd change is the fact I desperately want to not have a uterus.

3. I have no idea what it's like to feel like a girl or a guy, or any gender really. I don't really want to ask people about it because I don't want people to know anything until I get a real answer.

4. I like wearing dresses sometimes (but I don't own many as I'm very picky about them), but I also own a suit and I like to wear it sometimes. I'd probably wear it more often if a) it was less work to put on and take off, and b) I wasn't nervous about getting weird looks for wearing an entire 3-piece suit as someone who is otherwise a woman.

5. There have been times where I haven't wanted to be a girl. I'm pretty sure that was due to societal/cultural issues, though.

6. I'm weirdly anxious about being wrong on this, like finding out that I'm just a regular cis female. Idk if that has any real bearing on this though. It could just be due to having put myself through this for nothing? Idfk.

Other notes:

Name is not an issue, my full name is completely unisex/agender - first and middle - and my nickname is my initials, which have no gender because they're letters. I think my pronouns could only go as far from she/her as they/them, I'm not sure about he/him and personally I think any other pronouns outside the norm are a bit ridiculous/contrived. (Not that I won't accept other people using them, of course, I just couldn't use them myself).

(Also I do understand the inherent potential weirdness of being this insistent on figuring out my gender when my only conclusion so far is that it's not important.)

#rj talks #long post #(like really long)#gender #questioning gender #help?#yes i understand this is probably stupid #idfc tho #i want to know what i am #(ive done a bit of looking into nonbinary genders but thats always super frustrating for me)#(theres too damn many of them gdi i cant sift through dozens of genders with the tiniest differences between them)#(im rlly serious abt the uterus thing btw)#(please please let me have a hysterectomy)#(ovaries are fine. id keep them to not have early menopause. but get rid of the damn uterus)#(periods are hell and children are demons)#(id be a terrible mother anyway)#(might ask my sister abt it. swear her to secrecy and ask what it feels like to really be a girl. she would know)

[bursts through door] OH MY GOD I JUST BINGE WATCHED GRAVITY FALLS. ALL OF IT. AND IT MADE ME FEEL T H I N G S OH GOD IMA CRYING JSJDKWKDJSJJFHSISI MY HEART CANT TAKE THISSSSSS-

And now Imma do the same thing I did with Su. IM GONNA BE INDENIAL AND SAY IT DIDNT END. MORE ANGST, MORE MYSTERY, MORE C H A O S, MORE ELECTRICITY BILLS- I MEAN BILL BICYCLE HIMSELF. IM ALSO ADDING STEVEN CUZ THE CROSSOVER IS SO GODDAMN CUTE-

#gf #gravity falls #THIS SHOW MADE ME FEEL THINGS #IM NOT JOKING WHEN I SAY IM CRYING-#;0;#OH MY GOD IT WAS SO GOOOODDDD!!!#FUCK ITS 8AM #IDFC THO #THAT ALL-NIGHTER WAS FUCKIN WORTH IT BABY

Any other Aces out there who used to be like.... rly horny at one point in your life that literally have like- little to none of that left at all now and sometimes you’re kindof like “i sortof miss that” but also not?

#like its hard to explain #how can i miss being sexually attracted to things if like #i dont even feel it and cant rly even remember what it feels like #like its just so totally and completely gone #and now i just #dont want to hear about sex 99% of the time #1% of the time im not violently repulsed by it but im not like >:) either #just yep that sure is some sex right there #lookit there it is #idfc tho #ace feels #gsm #tmi

asexual ppl: we’re going to refer to non-asexual people as “allosexual” just so we have some easy words to use in discussions :)

a significant portion of this website: literally how fucking dare you

#me #ace discourse #will I lose followers for this? probably #idfc tho #and yeah I know some ace ppl (mostly minors!)#will make jokes about allos #but they're still learning about what it means to be in a group of people united by their sexuality #and the things they say should not dictate how the entire community is treated #ok to reblog

just booked myself in for a fun double feature tomorrow, truly I’m having a me day

#thunderbolts and sinners #gonna be a fun long 4hrs #also good lord cinema tickets prices #they do certainly be a lot huh #idfc tho

reminded of the time that I told everyone I was getting "chemotherapy" in the 4th grade even though I didn't have cancer and it was actually neurotherapy for my adhd

worst part was it didn't even work

#bullshittery #copied straight from my twitter #idfc tho #man i was a dumb 4th grader #don't blame me #i was undermedicated #daxposting

I got told to go touch grass...

I rolled around in it and now I got hives... its as great as pineapple

#spicy and crazy #probably an allergic reaction #Idfc tho