I don't feel him...I haven't felt him in a few days now. I know I am not suppose to give up hope, but it's hard. I need a sign, a feeling, something to know that my heart isn't gone. Where are you Omega!!! You can't be dead, you promised you would come back to me. Nothing feels the same anymore...is this is what giving up feels like? I don't want to give up...I am trying desperately not to give up.....but it's so hard when can't feel him. I try to go on everyday like I am okay, but it's getting harder and harder to ack like I am okay, when my heart is constantly breaking. Everyone seems so happy, and I am so miserable....where is the fairness in that? Why did it have to be my love that got torn apart? What did I do to ever deserve this kind of pain? Oh my god...I am so selfish. All I have been doing is thinking about my pain, but there are others in pain as well due to this stupid war, but I don't care...this is my time to be selfish for once, why must I always be the good little happy Pax. I don't feel like being good right now, I want to go kill whoever killed my Omega...that's how I feel right now. My parents are trying to get me to come out of my room, but I can't bring myself to face people yet. I miss him so much, and now I don't feel him.....today sucks! *She throws the book down and lay in the bed and pulls the covers over her head.*
