#idon'tmakesense

[theleemurfever]

Things that happened. I'm on a zombie apocalypse kick. I died. I got like a dozen games for Christmas and I'm trying to play them all fairly (okay maybe seven isn't quite a dozen.) I got a bunch of chocolate and ate pretty much nothing but chocolate for Christmas. A day later I have a sugar crash and I just want to sleep for the next five years. I'm still up anyway. Also first post wooooo and stuff like that.

[sneezysnivellous]

Some days I feel ...broken and I know how to fix myself except I can't bring myself to mend myself and then I feel bad about being broken and that breaks me even further and it's jus' a vicious cycle.

[jade-i]

Complex.

Life itself is complex if you think of it that way. Actually it's simple, You work on things that you need or things that you want to accomplish. You work for respect of people and for those who are close, those whom you love. Life is simple. Life is complex when you ponder into the depth and detail of how you execute such actions to accomplish these goals.  I do what I do in order to spend time with those whom I love and to continue on what I love doing. That is my goal, that is what I do, and that's what i'm going to keep on doing..

"Just do what you got to do"

-Mrs. Arienda Buton

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Ramblings #1

Life is a bit confusing. Minds are a bit confusing. For me, its the simple matter that I can be completely set and sure of myself one day, only to fall into a heap of despair and insecurity the next. Sometimes I ask myself why I have to be human.

It is a human trait, is it not, to constantly self doubt? I've never noticed my pet rabbit to worry about what its going to do for the rest of its life. It just likes to hump footballs and chew grass.

I feel privileged to be able to make decisions about my life, but also overwhelmed that there are so many decisions to be made. When will I move out of my house? When will I get a job? What will I do with my degree? Why am I even studying this degree? Am I making the right decision? Do I really like this person? Why are we friends when you make me feel horrible? And they get more and more depressing the further into the night we get. 

I am in need of a soul cleanse. I feel like I want too much. Maybe I am asking of world more than I need. Or perhaps I am taking more than I need. Or even perhaps I am not taking enough... 

[alephanttt]

Sometimes i want to speak to a therapist about my problems, because i feel like my friends are all just so biased to me. I mean, i appreciate them listening to me bitch and whine, and giving me feedback but sometimes i wanna hear an opinion from someone who doesn't know me personally.

[profoundscribbles]

I maybe Catholic, but I'm not that religious. Oo, I don't read the Bible. Di rin ako nakikinig kapag nagmimisa. Siguro nga bastos ako. Ginagawa ko lang ang mga bagay na yun para kay Lola. 

Catholic ako by birth certificate, hanggang papel lang. Yun lang yun. Never akong pinilit ng mga magulang ko na maniwala ako sa mga ganun. Bata palang ako, pinalaki na ko ng mga magulang ko na wag maniwala sa mga santo't santa dahil ayon sa kanila ay tao lang rin ang may gawa nun. Pinalaki nila ko na bukas ang utak sa lahat ng bagay. I mean, kalahati ng buhay ko'y nakagisnan ang kultura ng mga Muslim, yung isang kalahati naman ay ang kultura ng mga Katoliko. At masasabi ko ring halos hawig lang ang dalawa. Ang pinagkaiba lang ay masyadong pakialamero ang simbahang katoliko. Pasensya na, nagsasabi lang ng totoo. Nakita niyo naman di'ba? Konting kamalian sa paningin nila, petition agad. Kawindang lang.

Ang weird lang at pati mga concert pinapakialamanan nila. Di naman lahat ng tao sa Pilipinas katoliko. They keep shoving down their beliefs down into people's throats. This is why ni minsan hindi masyadong pinapaniwalaan ni ina ang simbahan. Yung iba nga, katoliko kuno. Pero tunay bang katoliko yan? Baka naman hanggang pakitang tao lang yan?