#idontwantyourhelp

[z-o-o-n]

Wow. I never thought I’d see myself back on this app. Under very different circumstances than before. I downloaded tumblr at 08:20am after trying to sleep all night. I haven’t had a good sleep in months so it’s somewhat normal now. Let me not waste too much time and tell you why I’m here. I have nobody so my thoughts and feelings will be here. No one will read this no one will care. I hope one day I will look back at this page and see how far I’ve come. Maybe I’ll kill myself before that time comes.

Until the end.

Me

[thekristastrophe]

My mother is more interested in making me feel like shit and pointing EVERY SINGLE ONE OF MY FLAWS than being excited for me

[imthehero-ofthis-story]

Fuck it. I used to believe that I was stronger; that I didn't need this. But I'm not. I am ridiculously, pathetically weak and I need this. And I'm sick and tired of trying not to, when its so easy to do. So here's to tonight. Here's to saying "fuck it I'm done trying" and finally just doing what needs to be done to make it quiet for just a little bit.

[namyaj]

You know what I noticed about myself?

I hate when I'm stressing out and people try to offer ways of solving it. As if I haven't thought of every possible way to solve it already and I hafta sit there and say 'I tried that' to every idea they offer. Then they get mad because I keep shooting down their ideas but really I wasn't asking for help, I can solve it myself, you asked what happened, I told you, I never said help me. I'm not tryna be a bitch but I just idk, I don't like it. I am perfectly fine with accepting the idea that I'm 'fucked for now' but I won't be tomorrow.