#ifuckinghatethis

[rat-eyes]

I literally have to find a job two months before I get the okay from doctor. Because disability sucks and all my savings is gone.  

[realacecowboy]

Nothing quite like being told you are abrasive and hard to talk to and intimidating when you genuinely always try your hardest to be nice and likable.

Like, just fuck me then.

Like no wonder I can’t make new friends??? Right???

It’s enough to make you never want to talk again. Likes it’s not that I wont talk... it just really makes me feel like crap. I know they weren’t saying I’m a bad person. I know they weren’t trying to be mean but...

Really does make me feel unlikable.

[occasionalerection]

everything is boring. i have no motivation to do anything anymore. don't want to draw, film, take photo's, go to school, go to work, talk to people, take care of myself, get my shit in order, move out, get my license. i just want to stop existing, i want time to stop. i wish this life wasnt mine. ii wish i had someone who cared about me, because i don't know how to do it myself. i'm not sad or anything. not anymore. it just feels like an endless void, just nothingness, im just existing but thats it. like my brain has been turned off. and i dont know how to snap out of it.

i should just go to bed already (its 4:27 am) but i am wide awake and i cant sleep.

i miss talking to u. you made me feel less hollow. you gave me motivation because you made me feel like life was actualy worth something. worth working for. but i cant put that responsibility on u. its not your job to give my life meaning.

but yeah idk

nvm

[krilledcheese]

Help.

I'm sinking deep,

further from the surface,

Where everything is clear,

Where i recognize my face.

.

How did i get here?

Short breaths, pressed lungs.

Confused, yet nothing to ask.

Think.

I've lost my strength.

And it's turning against me.

Think?

At this point

All i need is a drink.

.

I don't understand.

But it feels like drowning.

.

But if i'm underwater,

Why are the voices deafening?

[babeitsshelby]

I cried in the tacobell parking lot today, what else is new?

[bunnybearpress-blog]

I have taken the pacifier away from my 2 year old son and I have been a very active member of the no fun police. He got out of bed 11 times last night before finally falling asleep and is refusing his nap today. I've lost count of the number of times he has happily run from his room and I have crankily put him back in his bed. #thistooshallpass but right now #ifuckinghatethis

[chisaharu-chiha]

....

[jeez-eric]

Im mad at myself.. I let it happen again