everything is boring. i have no motivation to do anything anymore. don't want to draw, film, take photo's, go to school, go to work, talk to people, take care of myself, get my shit in order, move out, get my license. i just want to stop existing, i want time to stop. i wish this life wasnt mine. ii wish i had someone who cared about me, because i don't know how to do it myself. i'm not sad or anything. not anymore. it just feels like an endless void, just nothingness, im just existing but thats it. like my brain has been turned off. and i dont know how to snap out of it.
i should just go to bed already (its 4:27 am) but i am wide awake and i cant sleep.
i miss talking to u. you made me feel less hollow. you gave me motivation because you made me feel like life was actualy worth something. worth working for. but i cant put that responsibility on u. its not your job to give my life meaning.
but yeah idk
nvm