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you did what you did

and I felt what I felt.

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I don’t forgive you.

And maybe I’m not supposed to say that. Maybe I’m supposed to tie it all up with grace and healing and

„I wish you well“

But I don’t.

I don’t wish you well. Not because I’m bitter, but you knew exactly what you were doing. You knew it would break me, and you did it anyway.

They say forgiveness is for me, not for you. But what if I already found peace without handing you the gift of my grace? What if I moved on without letting you of the hook?

Because some people don’t deserve closure. Or softness. Or a second chance at being seen as gentle when they were anything but.

You wrecked me. And then walked away like it was normal. Like love is supposed to leave bruises. Like I should be the one doing the work to heal your damage.

But I’m done carrying both the wound and the guilt for not forgiving it.

So no, I don’t forgive you. I outgrew you. I outlived the version of me that waited for an apology you were never man enough to give.

And I don’t need to hold hope anymore. Hope that you’ll come back. Hope that one day, you’ll change. Hope that it meant more to you than just convenience.

I found peace in knowing you were a lesson, a hard one. One I didn’t deserve, but I survived anyway.

And that’s enough.

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sadness comes in waves, tonight I’m drowning

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Aber wie verabschiedet man sich, wenn das Herz noch festhält?

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now I have to remember you for longer than I have known you

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they don’t love me, they only know me, when they need me