Sep 1, 2014
...and with a glance to the moon she thought, "Fuck you, world" and buried herself in a book...
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...and with a glance to the moon she thought, "Fuck you, world" and buried herself in a book...
The holidays (and beyond)
J and I decided years ago to celebrate the Winter’s Solstice rather than Christmas within our house (we still celebrate Christmas with our extended family). Yesterday was Solstice and we spent it with friends who have a 7 week old, we were going to go today but an impending ice storm had us revise our plans. So, today we exchanged gifts.
Smalls did a great job with the gift wrap, she grabbed the piece we started and pulled! Of course then the paper headed to her mouth, but we quickly put in her hands the toy or book she just opened.
On Christmas Eve we’ll go to J’s mom’s house, on Christmas we’ll go to my Dad’s house and see my brother and new niece.
Holidays are hectic in the best of times. Adding a little one makes traveling take longer to prepare for and can be tough on them too. Smalls does pretty well in the car so it is mostly just making sure we’ve brought everything.
Also added to this is the fostering aspect. Mom and Dad have visits these couple weeks and I can only imagine how hard it is for them to miss Smalls’ first Christmas. We’ve done some small things to make it a bit easier - we made some handprint decorations and painted them, daycare made some holiday crafts that we’ll pass on too, and we’ve been sharing pictures for a few weeks now.
We have had a bit of a reality check-in during our last meeting with our DHHS worker. She stressed keeping care of our hearts (too late they belong to Smalls) and to be aware that ultimately the fate of Smalls lay in the hand of whatever judge hears the case. This means that Smalls could go home - period - regardless of the recommendations of DHHS and the Guardian ad litem, or any evidence that may be presented. This is a sobering fact that I can’t really do anything with. I love Smalls; her smiles warm my heart, her laughter and happiness make me want to explode with love. I know in my mind that, officially, Smalls is here temporarily; but in my heart she has a very permanent place.
happy birthday! :)
Thankyou dear :-)!