Traveling to places. Discovering Yourself. E X H A U S T I N G Is the best way to define every aspects of my life this 2017. My mental, physical, emotional, spiritual state was tested but this year taught me how to conquer my inner demons. It’s not easy but it turned out worthwhile. There are times that all I can think of would be a great solution is to give up and just leave everything behind. But even before I’ll come up to a decision which I know I’ll regret, things will go according to His plan. 2017 introduce me to a different world I’m about to take. The path that will lead me to the place where I wanna be. I’m afraid. More than the fact that I will soon need to take roads where I will be alone, what frightens me more is to travel not knowing where this wandering will take me. This year is a mirror that shows me myself. I did lots of wrong things, I failed, I am not good as everyone expected me to be, I made decisions that I really don’t like, I broke some of my principles, I am weak, I am not as strong as I think, I broke down countless times, I was not able to be daughter of my parents, to be a sister, to be a friend of my folks who needs me, and to be myself. I lost myself while reaching for my dreams. I forgot my goals, I lost my plans, I forgot to be happy. Acads went well, I did things that I’m passionate about. I was exposed to the field that I really want and it pushes me to learn more new things and to pursue being part of the media industry. I enjoyed the stress, workload, and at that moment I know that this is where I want to be. Unfortunately, due to some reasons my health declined. I undergo some tests to know if I am diagnose to an illness which is the result of lack of sleep and not getting enough food. Yet the results are negative. I’m still blessed. I learned to love myself even more. It has been a roller coaster ride for the youth ministry. All was left is to continue even if your comrades decided to end their battle. It has been a tough one, but I know that there are battles need to take and all I can do is to be strong and I will not be alone. I have people who got my back. I knew new people whom can I count on. Next year, I will continue to travel not just for myself but also for the people who believes in me. I may not be the person who people thinks that is capable of, but I know to myself that if I believe I could, I’m halfway through it. 2017 is a wild one. It helps me to become much stronger and braver. 2018, I’m ready!!!!!