#ihatedepression

[ihatedepression2019-blog]

#ihatedepression https://www.instagram.com/p/BvrI6Clg65P/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=x6cv4t28zrze

[ihatedepression2019-blog]

Are you okay? #ihatedepression (at New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/BusmHkDB7ii/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=e0qmrbm2s7rl

[lovesanimals77]

This is the 2nd book to the other book Im reading, but this book reads much easier! Author:Harpreet S. Duggal #self-management #fuckdepression #ihatedepression #iwishtherewasacure #iseetheworlddifferently #depressionopensyoureyes #ihatebeingsadallthetime #givememybabiesback https://www.instagram.com/p/BppNTyOBhn4/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1joway2rfay1z

[bluforyoublog]

It's leather weather. I mean LEATHERWEATHER! Oh my fuck 🎉 I completely am sucking so bad today but it's not noon yet. Plenty of time to keep rocking. And not depressed today. So I can do ANYTHING! #ihatedepression #leatherweather #ohhellyeah

[aspiritinthewind-blog]

I'm losing everyone, I don't want to, but my mind is pushing them away. 😭.

[poetrypastmidnight-blog]

layin' in bed, sweatpants and eating chocolate with my two kittens like the pos I am.

[dekudeki]

Instead of sleeping all I seem to be doing is tearing up 😔

[enterthepoontang]

Some late night spoken word.

“Life’s a gamble, no blackjack no Russian roulette,

I’ve tasted the rainbow; black, green and white satchels,

In an attempt to forget my regrets, 

The beast within is far too much to handle,

Roaming through the mist but I’m lost in the rain,

Staring at my silhouette only accelerates the pain,

So much to lose but I’ve everything to gain,

This life comes but once and its not a fucking game,

I don’t do this shit chasing the fame,

I could give a fuck if they remember my name,

Can’t believe what I’ve become so I hang my face in shame,

And at the end of the day, I’m the only one to blame...

I treaded lightly through the precipitation,

Dying inside from all the anticipation,

Had a one night stand with a thick bitch her nickname temptation,

Lost my dignity and pride to a bullshit sensation,

Everyday can’t be tropical vacations,

Nor constant elevation, wish I would’ve went left instead of diving right,

Into extraterrestrial alienation, which subsequently grew into crushing isolation,

At this moment, I’d kill to escape this abrasive encasement, 

Mama, please lock me in the basement and throw away the key,

Perhaps, misery doesn’t deserve company,

Maybe I’m not worthy of your love and affection,

And the only one to blame is myself,

For my very existence feels like a staff infection,

Lord liberate my soul because I’ve lost all sense of direction,

Dug myself into a hole I said I’d never set foot in, 

Please don’t tell me it’s all my perception,

Moms gave me a heart of gold, but now it’s hollow and wooden,

Shook, shocked, shaken, misunderstood and mistaken,

I’ve loved too hard, broken down even harder,

Too damn emotional bet your ass I blame it on my father,

Dipped out daily fishing for young trouts,

Mama worked double time so we could have food in our mouths,

While pops was in the trap with a base pipe glued to his mouth,

Cracking his lips as his mind travels from Jupiter to Andromeda,

Far from perfection, I refuse to be my father, so today begins my change of direction. Similar personas, contrasting complexions “

- Rizalve (2015)

P.S. I doubt many, if any of you are going to read this entire piece, let alone half way, but if even one of you is able to relate or get something, literally anything out of this writing, I would be very grateful if anyone felt comfortable enough to share how they felt about this work and how it spoke to them... Wishful thinking I suppose lol. Goodnight world.