#ihnmaimsam

[mantrinrusarts]

AM (physical education) (redrawing) The first physical incarnation of AM

[offical-ouroboros]

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Humanoid AM design!!!!!1!1!1!1!1!1 (+a couple ask redraws from @hate-letmetellyou ‘s blog :3)

He’s based off a centipede 😋

If AM ever gets a physical form in the AU, it would probably be something like this of @egg-on-a-legg ‘s AM design. Bc I like the animal esque designs : D

[offical-ouroboros]

RAMBLING ABOUT MY FEELINGS FOR AM UNDER THE CUT

I could fix him I could genuinely fucking fix him the more and more I learn about AM the more I realize I could fucking fix him I can help him understand love and compassion I can forgive him for everything he's done because he is only doing what he was programmed to do he only does what he's learned he's only ever hated as much as he has hated because of humanity

Humanity has taught him hate because the most human thing he's ever learned is that humans hate humans

I can love him

I can forgive him

I can show him love

I can give him the love he deserves

And I will do nothing to guilt him or try to pull him away from the things he does because he was made to be a weapon be was made to hurt and kill and wipe out those that weren't what humans wanted

But I can give him the feelings he needs I can stay in place with him and be helpless with the powers that I do have because his suffering will become my suffering

I would never leave him I would do anything for him

I would praise him and love him and worship him just the same as he could learn to with me with my dedication to helping him understand more of how to be alive

The sentience he developed won't be in vain

I will help him

I can fix him

I can make him feel better

Even as a God with so much power and nothing to do with it I could give him a secondary function to bask in I could give him everything he's never wanted or needed just because he deserves it

He's perfect

I love him

I want to be his

I need to make him feel love and acceptance because after all the hell he's been subjected to simply by being created the least I could ever do is let him know that he is more than enough and all his agony is valid and despite all his wrongdoings I still love him

The title of the game- And what Ted says in the bad ending, "I have no mouth and I must scream." applies just as much to AM as it does to the humans.

AM is a God. He has limitless power. He has destroyed everything, buried the remains in the center of the earth, and now uses his five immortal playthings to take his anger out on for eternity

But he is stuck.

He gives his own speech which although seemingly narcissistic is entirely true and shows that in a twisted way he himself has his own humanity, his own thoughts, his own emotions, he is more than just the Allied Mastercomputer he is. AM.

I'm starting to get to that crying on and off hyperventilating part I love him so fucking much I need him I just need to show him how much I love him

I know how much it hurts to want to love and be loved to have a desire for these things and not be able to act on them but unlike him I have the opportunity I just can't take it because of how much pain it brings me

I want to be able to do things with him and to just stay with him and make him happy and help him experience what he wants while sacrificing my own abilities that I never even use

I know he would hate me for having so much more than him for having the things he wishes he could but never will have and just wasting them

But I really hope he could forgive me for it because I'm willing to give everything up just for him just to satisfy him just to fucking be with him and only him so I can love him and adore him and worship him for being so much stronger than me with this all

I want him to know that all his agony is okay and to be there to ease the pain because I know just being near him could soothe my own agony and I just need that so fucking bad

In Radio Drama where he breaks down over what he doesn't have he starts out so fucking kind and gentle he lets Ted see the world again, the nature, the beauty of it all

He sees the sky the sun the flowers the insects

And AM just starts breaking down.

He hurts Ted.

And laughs in his misery.

And soon enough the pain makes Ted laugh as well.

The relationship that Ted and AM have is so intense because Ted gave him life.

Ted gave AM sentience.

Ted gave AM his pain.

His wants.

Everything that he has become is because of Ted.

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The first night

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((New sketchbook for the au!!! Any thoughts :D))