I want to start by apologizing, because I am going on an indefinite hiatus.
I realize I have three series I have not finished (ATEEZ, Seventeen, and Stray Kids), and I'm not sure when I will finish them.
Part of my hiatus is for my mental health, but its good! I started this blog to write stories to try and get over the writer's block I had for nearly three years.
I had been going to college for Creative Writing and for various reasons, I ended up leaving my school. Because of bad health reasons (I have a genetic disorder), I ended up transferring to online school. My mental health was really bad for a long time. Everything I loved and learned at my first school with my writing teacher there, was contradicted by what my online teacher professed. I hated it, and I lost all confidence due to the way the second teacher taught. It was like I couldn't write what I wanted (Thriller/Fantasy) because what is selling right now is Young Adult Romance/Fantasy. I hate that, and so I just…gave up.
I had been planning a novel series for years, and all of a sudden, it seemed like the work was for nothing. After getting my physical health better controlled, and then my mental health getting way better, I started to write fanfiction. Thanks to everyone's incredible comments and notes, I got my confidence back. I feel, again, like I am a good writer, which I was convinced I wasn't.
November is National Write a Novel Month, and I don't plan on doing the whole book I have planned then, but the goal is 40,000 words. I want to do at least that much. Because I want so bad to work on my novel series, I have honestly lost interest in fanfiction. I want to do what I've been planning since I was ten years old; be a novelist. I want to get all of the stuff for my novel planned out before November, its a High Fantast/Science Fiction/Thriller mashup thing that I've made a world for and everything. I don't just want to start it now, I need to.
This took me several weeks to think about, and I've finally decided. I recently moved, I am going to start working as the IT person for my uncle and father's company, and eventually start a computer repair and custom computer building business. I am waiting to hear back from the SSA to see if I can get Disability so I can do the computer stuff more as a productive hobby. I went from a town of less than a thousand to the Denver area. Big change, and now, I have opportunities. I can actually go to a library, or used bookstore, or even the museum now, because there is actually public transportation (I don't drive). After 13 years of hating where I lived, I came back to the home I always loved and I want to live a life…Touch some grass for once.
I want to thank everyone who has supported me up until this point, and I'm sorry I have left some things unfinished. Please, continue to enjoy and share my work, I'm not taking anything down. I might even post something once in a blue moon.
Again, thank you for your support, and please, continue to dream.