#ijov

[lovelylayazel]

i miss my honey ):

[lovelylayazel]

63 months | 5 years & 3 months. Can't wait to see you in a couple of weeks. Can't wait to be in your arms. Can't wait to kiss you. Can't wait to hold your hand. Can't wait for our adventures to random places. Can't wait to eat & binge watch shows with you. Can't wait to argue about what we're going to do for the day. Can't wait to wake up next to you. I can't wait. Missing you like crazy & I just can't wait to see you again. Even if it's not for long, I know we'll make the days worth it.

[lovelylayazel]

i'm just happy that i get to see isiah soon. just want these next few weeks to go by already.

[lovelylayazel]

I’ll see you soon, eventually. I just need to be patient. I miss you honey.

[lovelylayazel]

I miss us tbh. I miss you here, with me. I miss having full on conversations with you. Lately I’ve been feeling like we’ve been off & I know it’s because of work getting in the way, but it just kind of sucks. This distance is already hard as it is and not hearing from you often is somewhat killing me. I somewhat feel like you can be distant with me, but I know feelings aren’t changing between us. It’s just our communication is lacking.. I feel like I’ve told you how I’ve felt many times already about wanting to talk more often, but doesn’t seem like it’s solving much.

I just hope we’ll get back to “us” soon. I’ll be patient with you. Since we haven’t seen each other since January, I feel like that’s coming into play as well. Maybe when you’re back home, things will go back to normal.

I’m just scared that it’ll only be a temporary change again. Idk. Things are weird and off.

[lovelylayazel]

happy 5 years love.

[lovelylayazel]

One of the many things that I love about Isiah is that he never leaves until I'm in a better and happy mood. We didn't talk as much today because he got off of work late and he was tired. I was getting a bit annoyed with him because I just wanted to talk to him and at least skype or talk on the phone for a little. He kept falling asleep, so his replies were late. He finally called me, we talked and he told me his upcoming things for work. Our conversation was short because he has to wake up early, but before that I was still in a bad mood. I just miss him and I always get down whenever we talk less in our days. So of course, he already knew that I wasn't really happy so he kept saying things that he knew that would make me laugh. It worked. Then he said "I wanted to hear you laugh because you haven't laughed yet, I know you're in a bad mood & I'm sorry for not talking to you as much today. I promise we'll talk more tomorrow, I just don't want to go without hearing you laugh." Idk, I just appreciate when we always end the conversations on a good note. Even when I'm mad or annoyed with him, he still knows how to cheer me up. The little things.

[lovelylayazel]

I just want to say, thank you for loving me through it all. Even when things got rough and complicated, you never really stopped loving me & I never stopped loving you.