Me: Hey I don’t feel like eating, can’t sleep well, struggle emoting at times, constantly worry i’m not feeling the correct emotion for the situation. I literally have no idea what it’s like to be single and want things for myself. I’m constantly afraid not being around people I care about will put me back to robotic living (not really living) yet don’t know how to make friends. I’m worried if I go back to robotic living for long enough i’ll be suicidal again. I’m too terrified to look into my own future while three years into college. My mind is literally a minefield of memories that hurt to recall and my mental defense crutch hasn’t been seen in roughly a year.
Friend: Hey here are some resources that could help for you to call and talk to and set up some sessions, would you call them tomorrow?
Me: ... *finger guns*