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Dear person I'm jealous of

Dear person I am jealous of,

Are you called “everyone”? Because that is how I define your existence.

I doubt if I ever care if what you have is what I don’t. I have my sorrows and you have yours. I don’t feel like taking them away from you, with or without your permissions. So, peace.

Best regards,

Jejung.

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dear teenage self!

Dear teenage self,

Let me live your life again. Let me be selfish and stay carefree and curious without the burden of inflicting harm on others.

Let your parents be mine again.

Did you really kiss him? I forgot how much you blushed after that embarrassing incident. Anyway, you don’t have to write back and remind me.

Sincerely,Your miserable adult self.

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Dear Light.

Dear Light,

Let us talk like adults.

When you first agreed to be my partner for this parlous mission, I could not help but lying sleepless all night as the burden of guilt took over. May this short letter convey what is meant to be said from the beginning: I am sorry.  Please withdraw from here and stay safe in the protection of others. You are fragile and useless for the plan, I would shout that your pretty face to make you realize how hypocrite I am. Change your mind, before you regret it.

You don’t have to hate a charming one like me all the times. If I am really that despicable, you are not any better. Too lovely, too feminine, too sassy. 

Say “cheese”.

Serenity

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Dear Changmin.

Dear Changmin, or grumpy brat

I wish you could realize how big your role was to bring out the boldness in me. Our first encounter is still imprinted in my mind as if it had just happened yesterday. Learn your manner, brat!

It is quite upsetting that we have hardly had a decent chance to discourse our personal lives, or yours, which would be much more preferred. You are an independent and passionate one, Changmin. Your eyes speak it all even though your mouth always seals the words.

Arm wrestling next time we meet, maybe?

Jejung Hyung

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Dear Seito.

Dear Seito,

First of all, thank you for being my guardian angel for these 14 years.  We have known each other for half of our existence, does it sound possible for you?

Whenever I gaze up, I can always find you standing beside my side; and I know that even if I tried to free myself from it, to free you from this bond, your hand would never to let go of mine. My beloved Yunho, my best friend, for every scar that my selfish absence has left in that caring heart of yours, what else can I offer you but these few words of apologies? I have so many things to ask, but that anguished look in your eyes has locked them down to my throat.  I am scared to remind you about that fatal mistake that I have never truly learned.  My foolish impulse has hurt you much, hasn’t it.

I will not disappear again. Not without your company.

Kumo

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Dear Max

Dear Max,

I wish we had never come to each other’s life. We were destined to stay foes until one of us could obliterate the other’s existence.  Didn’t you see what were brought to us for defying it?

There was no official beginning between us, how could we call it an ultimate ending? You had put your life at stake to sustain the only chance of us being together, yet I still chose to walk away from you.

Please, forget me, because that is forgetting you is all I have been attempting to do. Even if exist a day where our paths re-crosses, let us treat all of these memories as a hideous cluster of detailing lies.

I never loved you.

Stay alive. By all means.

Jay